i just returned to toronto from the 2008 trans health conference in philly. after 2 nights of parties, 3 days of conferences, 1 presentation on providers day, and one workshop on the community days, after countless brilliant conversations, after meeting many amazing people, after being and after 6 hours of sleep in two days i can do nothing but a list of things that i feel now that i didn't feel 4 days ago...
i feel much less alone
i feel stronger and more confident in this world
i feel so excited to have met some amazing people
i know that i need to travel a lot more as it makes me feel so alive
i know that i need to leave toronto, for good; it's toxic for me
i know how destructive routines are for me
i know i am much more independent than i really realized
i know that i have the potential to be a really good educator
i know there's so much more. i am left exhausted and processing though it's mostly going in circles right now.
as a final note... one particularly moving highlight was eli clare's keynote
resisting shame which is available for download off of his website. i highly recommend reading it though hearing eli speak, being able to articulate how certainly he moves everyone in the room, is something that can't be described adequately.
xox
~becca