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Since my seventeenth birthday, I've made a habit of putting together a list of goals to accomplish before my next birthday.
1. Find a method of birth control that doesn't make me want to be celibate (the copper in the IUD has been causing unpleasant reactions for awhile now, and the entire thing is just an overall uncomfortable experience). - my fallopian tubes were tied in late November.
2. Get together with Nigel so as to get tattoo designed and on my body. - one of the best decisions I made all year.
3. Locate a med (that won't make me crazier than I already am) to take the edge off being bipolar. - I've accomplished a much more meaningful goal, in that I've learned to survive without medication.
4. Eliminate tachycardia, or at least decrease the frequency of the episodes to once every month or two. - my episodes have decreased in frequency to once every 4-6 months.
5. Go to Sarah Lawrence. and kick my ass into gear, while I'm at it - at the very least, begin to develop an idea of what I want to do with the rest of my life. DO NOT. DROP. OUT. - this one is still a work in progress. I've got a much better idea of what it is I want to do with myself, now.
6. Stay in touch with the people I care about (I have a pretty bad track record as far as this is concerned, i'd like to improve it).
7. See Daddy, Casey, Siren, Abie et. al again.
8. Upgrade my knowledge of HTML from "relative moron" to "g33kz0r" - totally tanked this one.
9. Go see the Rocky Horror Picture Show in an actual theater.
10. Get the blasted green base color out of my hair.
11. Acquire a laptop and/or break addiction to computer games ('s kinda ironic - for the 2.5 months i was down south, i barely touched a videogame. now that i'm back, megan the g4mer g33k has returned). do not under any circumstances even think about playing EverQuest again.
12. Grow breasts. I'm not talking about a couple watermelons or anything and, honestly, I won't be unhappy if they stay the way they are. It might be nice to upgrade a bit, though. - mission partially accomplished. *pokes the Brain*
13. Stop thinking of myself as broken.
14. Go on a road trip with Jamie, or just spend a few weeks around her.
15. find a home in the sanctuary sense of the word.
16. Dance with and kiss someone in the rain. - I more than accomplished this goal, I surpassed it, dancing with and kissing multiple people in the rain as well as having sex outside during a thunderstorm.
17. [come to terms with the fact that I'm gonna have to] sell my truck. stupid as it may sound, 's gonna be hard - i'm attached to her. - I sold her to my parents in February.
18. Part 1: Locate decent person to have relationship with. Don't get me wrong, I'm not getting out the stun gun and searchlight to go man/woman trapping. If it happens, it happens. If this objective is completed, proceed to part 2: Don't screw it up. - I may have screwed things up, but in light of the lessons I've learned from it, I consider it something of a success. the whole getting back together thing also works.
19. Get tongue pierced. maybe eyebrow, too. - i'd like the eyebrow, but with the way my body is with holes and metal, I'm not going to try.
20 things I'd like to accomplish before April 29, 2007 (jeesus, I'm gonna be twenty in a year. terrifying)
1. Take another trip with t3h Fredt0rg.
2. Get back into Sarah Lawrence. beat the shit out of the admissions people if necessary.
3. find a pair of neon orange fishnet tights (thank you, hot girl in the subway last night, for inspiring me. and filling my poor little brain with lust, but that's a different story)
4. get over this low self-esteem crap. it's been going on for almost seven years; time to stop wallowing in it. I look fine, who I am as a person is fine, and I have many more constructive things to think about.
5. have sex in the rain. or in public. or tied to a tree. or all of the above... or just something randomly awesome/kinky like that.
6. visit _boneflower_. see Matt, too, while I'm at it.
7. cut way back on the drama. Life doesn't need problems to make it interesting, there are some experiences better left untouched.
8. get a tattoo [in Portland].
9. eat chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream (total fantasy, but hey... my food dye problems are gone, my sensitivies to milk and cocoa are growing less severe. who knows?)
10. go back to Portland - if not to stay, then to indulge severely masochistic tendencies and beat myself up for ever leaving in the first place.
11. make more progress on this whole figuring out where I want to be and what I want to be doing thing.
12. get my fucking voice back, beat the shit out of my writer's block, and/or get back in touch with my formerly mad-cool dancing skillz.
13. go to a concert. I've never been to one. this fact is a problem, and should be remedied on an ASAP basis.
14. get my greedy little hands on an Alienware laptop (like it's ever gonna happen. but still, I can dream, can't I?)
15. find an effective, non-nasty way to control my ovarian cysts of doomy doomy doom.
16. go to Faire (side quest: add a piece onto my chainmaille ensemble).
17. figure out the psychological basis for my tendency to fall ill whenever I encounter people/places I really love and really want to be near. I'm pretty damn sure it's psychosomatic, and since it's all in my head, I should be able to figure it out and deal with it.
18. get dirty more often - I didn't have enough tomboy time this year, and I've missed rough-housing, mud fights, and crawling out of bed at 3 am to do really stupid things far too much.
19. dye my hair blue again
20. go on a date with a girl. done plenty of other things with girls, but never that, surprisingly enough.
1. Find a method of birth control that doesn't make me want to be celibate (the copper in the IUD has been causing unpleasant reactions for awhile now, and the entire thing is just an overall uncomfortable experience). - my fallopian tubes were tied in late November.
2. Get together with Nigel so as to get tattoo designed and on my body. - one of the best decisions I made all year.
3. Locate a med (that won't make me crazier than I already am) to take the edge off being bipolar. - I've accomplished a much more meaningful goal, in that I've learned to survive without medication.
4. Eliminate tachycardia, or at least decrease the frequency of the episodes to once every month or two. - my episodes have decreased in frequency to once every 4-6 months.
5. Go to Sarah Lawrence. and kick my ass into gear, while I'm at it - at the very least, begin to develop an idea of what I want to do with the rest of my life. DO NOT. DROP. OUT. - this one is still a work in progress. I've got a much better idea of what it is I want to do with myself, now.
6. Stay in touch with the people I care about (I have a pretty bad track record as far as this is concerned, i'd like to improve it).
7. See Daddy, Casey, Siren, Abie et. al again.
8. Upgrade my knowledge of HTML from "relative moron" to "g33kz0r" - totally tanked this one.
9. Go see the Rocky Horror Picture Show in an actual theater.
10. Get the blasted green base color out of my hair.
11. Acquire a laptop and/or break addiction to computer games ('s kinda ironic - for the 2.5 months i was down south, i barely touched a videogame. now that i'm back, megan the g4mer g33k has returned). do not under any circumstances even think about playing EverQuest again.
12. Grow breasts. I'm not talking about a couple watermelons or anything and, honestly, I won't be unhappy if they stay the way they are. It might be nice to upgrade a bit, though. - mission partially accomplished. *pokes the Brain*
13. Stop thinking of myself as broken.
14. Go on a road trip with Jamie, or just spend a few weeks around her.
15. find a home in the sanctuary sense of the word.
16. Dance with and kiss someone in the rain. - I more than accomplished this goal, I surpassed it, dancing with and kissing multiple people in the rain as well as having sex outside during a thunderstorm.
17. [come to terms with the fact that I'm gonna have to] sell my truck. stupid as it may sound, 's gonna be hard - i'm attached to her. - I sold her to my parents in February.
18. Part 1: Locate decent person to have relationship with. Don't get me wrong, I'm not getting out the stun gun and searchlight to go man/woman trapping. If it happens, it happens. If this objective is completed, proceed to part 2: Don't screw it up. - I may have screwed things up, but in light of the lessons I've learned from it, I consider it something of a success. the whole getting back together thing also works.
19. Get tongue pierced. maybe eyebrow, too. - i'd like the eyebrow, but with the way my body is with holes and metal, I'm not going to try.
20 things I'd like to accomplish before April 29, 2007 (jeesus, I'm gonna be twenty in a year. terrifying)
1. Take another trip with t3h Fredt0rg.
2. Get back into Sarah Lawrence. beat the shit out of the admissions people if necessary.
3. find a pair of neon orange fishnet tights (thank you, hot girl in the subway last night, for inspiring me. and filling my poor little brain with lust, but that's a different story)
4. get over this low self-esteem crap. it's been going on for almost seven years; time to stop wallowing in it. I look fine, who I am as a person is fine, and I have many more constructive things to think about.
5. have sex in the rain. or in public. or tied to a tree. or all of the above... or just something randomly awesome/kinky like that.
6. visit _boneflower_. see Matt, too, while I'm at it.
7. cut way back on the drama. Life doesn't need problems to make it interesting, there are some experiences better left untouched.
8. get a tattoo [in Portland].
9. eat chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream (total fantasy, but hey... my food dye problems are gone, my sensitivies to milk and cocoa are growing less severe. who knows?)
10. go back to Portland - if not to stay, then to indulge severely masochistic tendencies and beat myself up for ever leaving in the first place.
11. make more progress on this whole figuring out where I want to be and what I want to be doing thing.
12. get my fucking voice back, beat the shit out of my writer's block, and/or get back in touch with my formerly mad-cool dancing skillz.
13. go to a concert. I've never been to one. this fact is a problem, and should be remedied on an ASAP basis.
14. get my greedy little hands on an Alienware laptop (like it's ever gonna happen. but still, I can dream, can't I?)
15. find an effective, non-nasty way to control my ovarian cysts of doomy doomy doom.
16. go to Faire (side quest: add a piece onto my chainmaille ensemble).
17. figure out the psychological basis for my tendency to fall ill whenever I encounter people/places I really love and really want to be near. I'm pretty damn sure it's psychosomatic, and since it's all in my head, I should be able to figure it out and deal with it.
18. get dirty more often - I didn't have enough tomboy time this year, and I've missed rough-housing, mud fights, and crawling out of bed at 3 am to do really stupid things far too much.
19. dye my hair blue again
20. go on a date with a girl. done plenty of other things with girls, but never that, surprisingly enough.