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this is gonna be a real bullshit entry. it'll probably disappear soon.
I need to revamp everything in my life. New places, new homes, new stuff. New friends?? I dont even really understand what friends are supposed to be anymore...people who are supposed to be loyal and people you can count on. But, count on for what?? You can't count on them to back you on everything, because sometimes they don't have the same opinion as you on something...and then they end up having to choose between one or the other.
I mean, personally speaking, my best friends know who they are. And they know they come first, above anything and everything else...so shouldn't I be able to ask for the same from them?
I'm also sick of being provided for. It's really weird - I'm paying for college; I'm pretty much fending for myself without a car and without a lot of the staples I need to get by comfortably. But every time I do get my comfortability provided for, it gets rubbed back in my face and all of the sudden I have all these extra obligations because "where would i be without the never-failing aid of my dear old dad".
If it's really gonna be that much of a problem to get me a Christmas present that's really important to me, or let me use the car when I'm home since I never got one...then maybe I don't want to come home and stay under their roof at all. Maybe I want to stay in Asheville by myself for Christmas - because what good is going on here anyways.
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I need to revamp everything in my life. New places, new homes, new stuff. New friends?? I dont even really understand what friends are supposed to be anymore...people who are supposed to be loyal and people you can count on. But, count on for what?? You can't count on them to back you on everything, because sometimes they don't have the same opinion as you on something...and then they end up having to choose between one or the other.
I mean, personally speaking, my best friends know who they are. And they know they come first, above anything and everything else...so shouldn't I be able to ask for the same from them?
I'm also sick of being provided for. It's really weird - I'm paying for college; I'm pretty much fending for myself without a car and without a lot of the staples I need to get by comfortably. But every time I do get my comfortability provided for, it gets rubbed back in my face and all of the sudden I have all these extra obligations because "where would i be without the never-failing aid of my dear old dad".
If it's really gonna be that much of a problem to get me a Christmas present that's really important to me, or let me use the car when I'm home since I never got one...then maybe I don't want to come home and stay under their roof at all. Maybe I want to stay in Asheville by myself for Christmas - because what good is going on here anyways.
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