wonderfulove
i had to realize that the feeling in my stomach wasnt worth it.
and when i did, it went away.
as much as i wanted to justify my stronger love, tell my itoldyouso--i told you i loved you more. had you been home last week, id never have gone to the phish show with my cousin. had it been this week, had it been tonight, why would i have ever wanted to go--
i didnt.
because two days isnt worth anything but kisses and laughs and falling asleeps and worrynothings.
and the only thing that couldve really meant something was what is uncomparative to his tonight and my last week. had it been any day this summer, any day that he was home, i wouldnt have gone.
i dont know if thats pathetic.
wonderfulobsession maybe.
he leaves in two days.
i can figure it out.
figure things out.
do this and that.
im only half-scared/worried/nervous/heartbroken.
ive learned what weeping is.
its always been a romantic word.
in pretentious novels.
yeah, and its different from crying. it feels nicer.
ok to do.
and when i did, it went away.
as much as i wanted to justify my stronger love, tell my itoldyouso--i told you i loved you more. had you been home last week, id never have gone to the phish show with my cousin. had it been this week, had it been tonight, why would i have ever wanted to go--
i didnt.
because two days isnt worth anything but kisses and laughs and falling asleeps and worrynothings.
and the only thing that couldve really meant something was what is uncomparative to his tonight and my last week. had it been any day this summer, any day that he was home, i wouldnt have gone.
i dont know if thats pathetic.
wonderfulobsession maybe.
he leaves in two days.
i can figure it out.
figure things out.
do this and that.
im only half-scared/worried/nervous/heartbroken.
ive learned what weeping is.
its always been a romantic word.
in pretentious novels.
yeah, and its different from crying. it feels nicer.
ok to do.