The Awful Truth
I have spent the day toiling and roiling over things. Work was demanding this week but no more so than the mental acrobatics I performed every hour. I have come to some random conclusions that I will dispense with now.
1. I am a pretty mean person.
I can be ungracious, rude, callous, and chillingly cruel. I am not always the happy-go-lucky person I portray. I am judgmental and I believe this to be my greatest fault. (Yes; it's even worse than my lack of punctuality.) These imperfections multiply with the lowered dose of my current medication. I believe I must insist on an increase to keep these anxieties and negativity at bay.
2. I dedicate songs to my friends while I work.
As I listen to my playlist throughout the day, certain songs just remind me of people to the point where I want to post about it. I know part of the drive is to advertise the songs that I believe I alone am privy to, but I also want to let people know that I'm thinking of them even when I'm not calling or texting. Facebook gives you a false sense of connection. You feel like you're caught up on the important migrations and happenstance but you're not really communicating. You're just posting and hoping someone you know will read it, like sending bottled messages into the sea.
3. I like posting Youtube videos of these songs to educate the public on how cool my music collection is.
That really doesn't require further explanation.
And because LiveJournal is really all about doing exactly what you want, I choose to ignore my snarky side and will post the video/song dedications here.
She Way Out by the 1975 for the Awesome Janny
The Worst by Jhene Aiko for Andy
New York is a Woman by Suzanne Vega for Jennifer
Ali in the Jungle by The Hours for me and everyone
The end (for now)
1. I am a pretty mean person.
I can be ungracious, rude, callous, and chillingly cruel. I am not always the happy-go-lucky person I portray. I am judgmental and I believe this to be my greatest fault. (Yes; it's even worse than my lack of punctuality.) These imperfections multiply with the lowered dose of my current medication. I believe I must insist on an increase to keep these anxieties and negativity at bay.
2. I dedicate songs to my friends while I work.
As I listen to my playlist throughout the day, certain songs just remind me of people to the point where I want to post about it. I know part of the drive is to advertise the songs that I believe I alone am privy to, but I also want to let people know that I'm thinking of them even when I'm not calling or texting. Facebook gives you a false sense of connection. You feel like you're caught up on the important migrations and happenstance but you're not really communicating. You're just posting and hoping someone you know will read it, like sending bottled messages into the sea.
3. I like posting Youtube videos of these songs to educate the public on how cool my music collection is.
That really doesn't require further explanation.
And because LiveJournal is really all about doing exactly what you want, I choose to ignore my snarky side and will post the video/song dedications here.
She Way Out by the 1975 for the Awesome Janny
Click to viewThe Worst by Jhene Aiko for Andy
New York is a Woman by Suzanne Vega for Jennifer
Ali in the Jungle by The Hours for me and everyone
The end (for now)