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Well I'm back from Florida...unfortunately. Florida was what I needed. I definitely needed to get away from New Jersey. I needed to get away from Ramapo and the stress that it brings. But most importantly I needed to get away from everyone in Jersey. I needed time to collect my thoughts and sort everything out. Basically...I needed to reevaluate my life. And I did.
I like going away with people from school because I'm not involved with any drama with any of them. Yes...I got pissed at Mike and a few others but that's what's going to happen when you're sharing a small house with 11 other people. I got to sleep with Jenna every night. Every guy there was jealous of me. Naturally I rubbed it in their faces hah.
I drank a lot more than I thought I was going to. Drinking on the beach is such a good idea...Well...until you get so drunk by 1230 that you pass out in the sun and get burned all over your neck. That was fun. But needless to say everyone got along...with the exception of Jim's girlfriend...but she doesn't really matter.
I read Twilight. Yes...I was sucked in. Actually...when we were on our way home from Florida yesterday we had a layover in Miami. I went to the bookstore to see if they had the second one. They did...in Spanish. Now...I know there are a lot of spanish people in Miami but this is fucking America. We speak English. Why would an airport have 7 copies of New Moon in Spanish but have none in English? I was pissed. I just went to Borders and got the book so I'm happy. My mom also rented the movie for me so I plan to watch that after I write this entry.
At any rate...back to Twilight. As I was reading it I thought that Edward reminded me of someone but I couldn't figure out who. Then I got a text message and it dawned on me. Edward reminded me of Evan. Oh Evan. He's mysterious. He's very intuitive. He's sensitive. He's hard but soft. He's a dick but an genuinely nice guy at the same time. It bothered me how similar they were. I wasn't trying to get away from Evan but I didn't want to think about him as much as I had been prior to spring break. This was clearly impossible.
Yes. I like him. As I wrote earlier I like him more than I should. Do I want a boyfriend? Not right now. After I told him that I don't want one I still feel like he doesn't believe me. I flirt yes. He also flirts back. He told me the other day that I made him smile a lot. That's all I want really. I just want to see the kid happy.
We are now friends on here so he's probably gonna read this. I'm okay with that. I don't have much to hide. I also read his. I understand a little more what's been going on through his head since it is practically impossible to read his mind. Nothing really bothered me with what he wrote. I know he's still in that awkward phase with Casey. I know he's hooking up with other guys. I know he has these weird crushes on other guys. I don't really understand some of them but everyone has their own taste. I'm doing the same thing. Me and him are very similar so I know what he is going through.
I'm hanging out with him on Wednesday and then he's coming out for my birthday. I'm excited I'm not gonna lie. I'm just going to go with the flow as of now.
My birthday is on Friday. I usually don't like my birthday but I'm stoked for this year. The big 2 1. Hah...I feel so old.
I like going away with people from school because I'm not involved with any drama with any of them. Yes...I got pissed at Mike and a few others but that's what's going to happen when you're sharing a small house with 11 other people. I got to sleep with Jenna every night. Every guy there was jealous of me. Naturally I rubbed it in their faces hah.
I drank a lot more than I thought I was going to. Drinking on the beach is such a good idea...Well...until you get so drunk by 1230 that you pass out in the sun and get burned all over your neck. That was fun. But needless to say everyone got along...with the exception of Jim's girlfriend...but she doesn't really matter.
I read Twilight. Yes...I was sucked in. Actually...when we were on our way home from Florida yesterday we had a layover in Miami. I went to the bookstore to see if they had the second one. They did...in Spanish. Now...I know there are a lot of spanish people in Miami but this is fucking America. We speak English. Why would an airport have 7 copies of New Moon in Spanish but have none in English? I was pissed. I just went to Borders and got the book so I'm happy. My mom also rented the movie for me so I plan to watch that after I write this entry.
At any rate...back to Twilight. As I was reading it I thought that Edward reminded me of someone but I couldn't figure out who. Then I got a text message and it dawned on me. Edward reminded me of Evan. Oh Evan. He's mysterious. He's very intuitive. He's sensitive. He's hard but soft. He's a dick but an genuinely nice guy at the same time. It bothered me how similar they were. I wasn't trying to get away from Evan but I didn't want to think about him as much as I had been prior to spring break. This was clearly impossible.
Yes. I like him. As I wrote earlier I like him more than I should. Do I want a boyfriend? Not right now. After I told him that I don't want one I still feel like he doesn't believe me. I flirt yes. He also flirts back. He told me the other day that I made him smile a lot. That's all I want really. I just want to see the kid happy.
We are now friends on here so he's probably gonna read this. I'm okay with that. I don't have much to hide. I also read his. I understand a little more what's been going on through his head since it is practically impossible to read his mind. Nothing really bothered me with what he wrote. I know he's still in that awkward phase with Casey. I know he's hooking up with other guys. I know he has these weird crushes on other guys. I don't really understand some of them but everyone has their own taste. I'm doing the same thing. Me and him are very similar so I know what he is going through.
I'm hanging out with him on Wednesday and then he's coming out for my birthday. I'm excited I'm not gonna lie. I'm just going to go with the flow as of now.
My birthday is on Friday. I usually don't like my birthday but I'm stoked for this year. The big 2 1. Hah...I feel so old.