i'm glad i'm alive
So I for sure just took my Greek test, and that turned out to be a little different than I had expected. However, I love that it's out of the way and I have a weekend to begin to catch up and study and all of that.
Last night was the symphony. Oh goodness. Such the perfect night, I can't even tell you. I basically had the best date ever to go with and he made me so happy all night. From giving me a piggyback the whole two blocks there so I didn't have to walk in my heels, to giving me his shirt when I was freezing, to spending the night over here for open dorm just sleeping with me [in a completely pure way]. It was seriously the best night I could have asked for, and I am so happy that I ended up taking him.
I just have one itsy bitsy problem. I'm for sure falling for him, harder than I should and harder than I ever though I would. I know I've not known him very long, but he is so sweet and everything. I think though, that no matter what, it's not going anywhere. I know for a fact he doesn't like me and wants nothing to do with a relationship, serious or otherwise, so I'm going to have to get over that. It's for the best though, I'm sure.
Right now, he's what's been confusing my heart. It's like, Kenny, or him, Kenny, or him. I can't make up my mind. But after Kenny came and got his present and nothing happened and he didn't even talk to me or anything, I decided that I was going to let him decide everything. I'd put my heart back out on the line for him, and he rejected it. It's mine now, and here's the hard part - I can't give it to anyone but Jesus.
It's so hard for me to seriously think that will happen. I have so little faith in myself when it comes to resisting boys and that type of thing. I always end up talking myself into the fact that they're really good for me, and I'll be fine. But it's never like that. Especially this time. So even though my heart wants to go to someone else, I have to guard it with my life, and keep it for Jesus alone. At least until I get back into the place I used to be - the place where my faith was something that was important to me, not just convenient for me. I just am hoping that this whole bit will be a good thing for me. I really do.
Misty is now on her way over, and I haven't actually had her and me time since before my birthday. We tried once a couple weeks ago, but she got sick and went home. So today has to work.
<3
Last night was the symphony. Oh goodness. Such the perfect night, I can't even tell you. I basically had the best date ever to go with and he made me so happy all night. From giving me a piggyback the whole two blocks there so I didn't have to walk in my heels, to giving me his shirt when I was freezing, to spending the night over here for open dorm just sleeping with me [in a completely pure way]. It was seriously the best night I could have asked for, and I am so happy that I ended up taking him.
I just have one itsy bitsy problem. I'm for sure falling for him, harder than I should and harder than I ever though I would. I know I've not known him very long, but he is so sweet and everything. I think though, that no matter what, it's not going anywhere. I know for a fact he doesn't like me and wants nothing to do with a relationship, serious or otherwise, so I'm going to have to get over that. It's for the best though, I'm sure.
Right now, he's what's been confusing my heart. It's like, Kenny, or him, Kenny, or him. I can't make up my mind. But after Kenny came and got his present and nothing happened and he didn't even talk to me or anything, I decided that I was going to let him decide everything. I'd put my heart back out on the line for him, and he rejected it. It's mine now, and here's the hard part - I can't give it to anyone but Jesus.
It's so hard for me to seriously think that will happen. I have so little faith in myself when it comes to resisting boys and that type of thing. I always end up talking myself into the fact that they're really good for me, and I'll be fine. But it's never like that. Especially this time. So even though my heart wants to go to someone else, I have to guard it with my life, and keep it for Jesus alone. At least until I get back into the place I used to be - the place where my faith was something that was important to me, not just convenient for me. I just am hoping that this whole bit will be a good thing for me. I really do.
Misty is now on her way over, and I haven't actually had her and me time since before my birthday. We tried once a couple weeks ago, but she got sick and went home. So today has to work.
<3