Space...
Space is somewhere that it must be prestine...and lonely. And therefore it is funny that space is sometimes needed in a relationship to keep it healthy. The landscape in a relationship often becomes prestine after one of the players is able to have the space that they need, and this space does not necessarily mean that there needs to be a break in the relatiohship. I hope and truly want to believe that this is just something he needs at this time in his life. And I am not going to give up just because it is not what I am typically used to in a relationship. But I need to remember that I have never had a relationship with Ben before.
I feel better today than I have in the past couple days. I have come to terms with Ben needing his space, and really do not believe that the problem is concerning me. And I know what is wrong in my life. I have somehow got stuck on this bad tract of luck, all starting with the little incident at work. I need to find the circuit breaker to put me back on my good path. it sounds easy but the problem is that I need to find it and that is the hard part. By the grace of God, I need to find it because I cannot keep on living in this circuit. I need my juju back!!!!
Last thing, my job has become a commical trainwreck. I am thinking about writing a book because of all the hilarious things that I encounter and about the truths of people that I have learned. But what is the point of a book that you think will never really become anything. Well we will see. I am going to PF Changs with Erin to get drinks and food for Mardi Gras. Hopefully I can shop a little bit to because sadly that never gets old to me.
I feel better today than I have in the past couple days. I have come to terms with Ben needing his space, and really do not believe that the problem is concerning me. And I know what is wrong in my life. I have somehow got stuck on this bad tract of luck, all starting with the little incident at work. I need to find the circuit breaker to put me back on my good path. it sounds easy but the problem is that I need to find it and that is the hard part. By the grace of God, I need to find it because I cannot keep on living in this circuit. I need my juju back!!!!
Last thing, my job has become a commical trainwreck. I am thinking about writing a book because of all the hilarious things that I encounter and about the truths of people that I have learned. But what is the point of a book that you think will never really become anything. Well we will see. I am going to PF Changs with Erin to get drinks and food for Mardi Gras. Hopefully I can shop a little bit to because sadly that never gets old to me.