Ugh!!!
Damn it!!!! i lnow i haven't updated 4 a while but whaever! Yes, Nadia and I are going out, 3 weeks and 2 days, but something fucking weird is happening!!!
I mean everything was so perfect but now it's all a lost cause and is going down Hill!!!!!! I don't know what the fuck to do! She says that she wants to be friends and get to know me a little bit better, i don't blame her, but it's been 3 fucking weeks already!! I am so frustrated, maybe there is someone else, maybe it's me, maybe it's this or that, I don't know!!! We talked about it but i just feel that she is not telling me all of it! I also herd things like; "Ohhhhhhhh it's over between them two" or "Ohhhhhh he dosen't know the whole story." Fuck! i am sapose to hang out with her this Friday, but i have no idea of what's going to happen, i mean I realy like her and care about her, we are so good together! These past 3 days I,ve been blaming everything on me, and saying that it is my fault, i feel so secluded right now. I can't even come to her swim meet today, and I promised her too, well i abiosly I can't go because of my mother. And I feel like i am worst boy friend ever, what am I doing wrong??? I wish i'd known all this before we went out. Oh well we'll just see what happens next, i only hope for the best.
I mean everything was so perfect but now it's all a lost cause and is going down Hill!!!!!! I don't know what the fuck to do! She says that she wants to be friends and get to know me a little bit better, i don't blame her, but it's been 3 fucking weeks already!! I am so frustrated, maybe there is someone else, maybe it's me, maybe it's this or that, I don't know!!! We talked about it but i just feel that she is not telling me all of it! I also herd things like; "Ohhhhhhhh it's over between them two" or "Ohhhhhh he dosen't know the whole story." Fuck! i am sapose to hang out with her this Friday, but i have no idea of what's going to happen, i mean I realy like her and care about her, we are so good together! These past 3 days I,ve been blaming everything on me, and saying that it is my fault, i feel so secluded right now. I can't even come to her swim meet today, and I promised her too, well i abiosly I can't go because of my mother. And I feel like i am worst boy friend ever, what am I doing wrong??? I wish i'd known all this before we went out. Oh well we'll just see what happens next, i only hope for the best.