so sick. so tired.
im sick of being alone mostly i think. it really hurts. i thought i had someone....and it made me feel really good becuase this time was "for real" but...yet again i got burned. it hurts so bad....last night i think was the most emotion i've ever felt at one time. At first i was hurt...really bad. Then it went away and was replaced with anger. It really hurts to know, that someone else knows that they can fuck you over, and have everything be ok the next day. Well...it's happened too many times in a row. and i don't care. im numb. im convinced this is just payback for every fucked up thing i've ever done to a girl. So if that's the case then im prepared to take it and i accept it. I just wish it didn't hurt so fucking bad. In other news i have til sunday night to move out. sigh. how did things ever start to go this good for me?
AUGH! where in the rules of life does it say that you get a girlfriend, she makes friends with your ex girlfriend, and all of the sudden your not important...yah like im the only person that it's happened to. well...all that's the past now. im single yet again. the week had it's run. The thing that i regret the most, is doing what i did. And believing everything she said to me. it's funny what love can make you do.
She lied to me. She lied to her friends. this is funny that im even writing this, becuase all the people, who say theyre my friends, don't care. I think im going to be in a part of my life soon where im going to eliminate a lot of people from my life. And a lot of people, that think theyre oh so cool with me. are going to be very suprised. but im sure they don't care. It seems that everyone hates me anyway. Fuck the world. I need a drink.
AUGH! where in the rules of life does it say that you get a girlfriend, she makes friends with your ex girlfriend, and all of the sudden your not important...yah like im the only person that it's happened to. well...all that's the past now. im single yet again. the week had it's run. The thing that i regret the most, is doing what i did. And believing everything she said to me. it's funny what love can make you do.
She lied to me. She lied to her friends. this is funny that im even writing this, becuase all the people, who say theyre my friends, don't care. I think im going to be in a part of my life soon where im going to eliminate a lot of people from my life. And a lot of people, that think theyre oh so cool with me. are going to be very suprised. but im sure they don't care. It seems that everyone hates me anyway. Fuck the world. I need a drink.