Apr 08, 2005 00:34
oh jeesus christ. im head over heals for this girl. my stomach gets all ticklish everytime i think of her. Its crazy. i swear ive never felt that feeling so much...ever. Her names courtney and shes my lover. Welll....
It was wednsday. i had just had a dream. I was at some weird cabin place that sort of looked like outdoor school. I was in a cabin with Courtnee and some other girl beleived to be Becky. It was at night and i had to go to sleep, in the dream, the next thing i know im in bed falling asleep when the lgihts turn on and courtnee steps in the room. she walks closer and closer to me. it seems like 10 minutes until she finaly gets too me. She grabs the bottome of her shirt and rigt before she takes it off i woke up.
I think to myself "im gaga for tis girl, im upsessed. theres no chance though. i shouldnt try...i have NEVER EVEN TALKED TO THIS GIRL." but i hadknown so much already. shes a rocker. ac/dc, beastie boys, ozzy, the works. she dressed like a punk but was so friendly, social, funny, beautiful to my standards. i loved everything about her...but im just some kid who sits quietly and gets his work done right?
well that same day at school. The first class...Science. I'm helping my friend, Bryson with his science project. Courtnee comes over and says some stuff to bryson but he was busy sooooo, i started talking to her for the first time and we got along really good. I was practicly following her around that class like a lost puppy. i dont get to talk to her in math because my teacher sucks balls and shes not in my core class so i was very dissapointed but i was very happy once i got to tech(aka 'Shop') We started talking some more, and started paying more attention to me than the guy who was trying to go out with her (with no luck i might add)
At the last 10 minutes she starts laughing.
Courtnee-seans my lover
me-wha??????
Courtnee-your my lover
Manuel(the guy wanting to go out with her)-is this true?
Courtney-say 'heck yes, im your lover'
me-i dont know whats going on
courtney-say it
manuel-is it?????
me-eh.....
manuel-tell me
courtney-seans my lover!
me-ah!, i dont know whats happening!
(i know....i blew it...............)
She walked over to her desk accross the room and yelled over to me "seans my lover!" as i stood there, my face as red as an cherry im sure. Meaning to confront her about it afterschool i walked behind her in the halls but didnt have the guts to say anything.
The next day everything went like it didnt even happen accept me and her said stuff here and there but she didnt have art that day and i did.
The day after that(which would be today) i told my friends about the inccodent
"you cought someone without fishing my friend" wyatt told me
other people just laughed or stared at my incompitable luck. in the hallways during lunch she passed by with nearly 10 friends it seamed as i stood with ym friends she yelled "theres my lover!!!" i freaked out and slid past into the lunchroom reder than a streetlight. (i had blown it again, i dont want to act like im not interested)
That passed and it was tech time, time to really ask and try to get further into a relationship. we hung out the whole time.
me-so what was with the whole lover thing?
Courtnee-well...will you be my lover
me-uh.....
chad(another kid at the table)-would you be her lover really?
courtnee-*stares at me*
me-uh...um....
chad-well??? would you?
me-um....sure
( i had to stop doing that, i didnt sound like i relaly wanted it!!!!)
she smile and then she said
courtnee-chad, will you be my backup lover
chad-hell no!
courtnee-didnt think so
the whole rest of the period i sat with her as she wrote on ym shop project (paper car) and all in my binder. she wrote utterly random things in my binder but afterwards put "-your lover" and "-court" on my car she wrote "courtizzle fo shizzle" and "i heart you" and "courtney is your lover"
at this point im confused, i lvoe this chick but at time she sounds like she feels the same way abbout me, and at others it sounds like a joke (not to played against me but with me)
I dont know what to think....i just cant get over her though. its a 3 day weekend and in the first time of my life, i HATE the 3 day weekend.
THat would be cool if courtnee magicly ran accross this but its so unlickly its not funny...it wouild make things alot easier though.
thats the highlight of my life
cya
Courtnee's Lover
(aka. Sean)