(no subject)
it's like explosions - rockets and billowing displays of firepower - sent up from somewhere near my solar plexus and exploding outward in the center of my chest.
ripples are felt as far away as my throat.
ripples of pure, unadulterated joy.
ripples that smooth out into the faintest hint of nervous anxiety...
will this feeling return? will its effects diminish over time? will i some day look back at these feelings and feel ashamed of myself?
it's been so long since i've felt so utterly moved by someone else's favor, someone else's kindness, someone else's beauty. it's been so long since i've allowed anybody to get close enough to enable such feeling. it's been so long that half of this must be the relative newness of it all.
nobody knows what tomorrow may bring, but today... at this very moment... i'm very, very happy.
ripples are felt as far away as my throat.
ripples of pure, unadulterated joy.
ripples that smooth out into the faintest hint of nervous anxiety...
will this feeling return? will its effects diminish over time? will i some day look back at these feelings and feel ashamed of myself?
it's been so long since i've felt so utterly moved by someone else's favor, someone else's kindness, someone else's beauty. it's been so long since i've allowed anybody to get close enough to enable such feeling. it's been so long that half of this must be the relative newness of it all.
nobody knows what tomorrow may bring, but today... at this very moment... i'm very, very happy.