A Bit of an Update
Life hasn’t been treating me too poorly lately, with the exception of some health issues that can’t seem to be figured out. I’ve gained a good amount of weight that I can’t seem to lose no matter what I do and am tired all the damn time. I also had a bought of pretty substantial hair loss…to the point where I had to Drano my bathtub for the first time in my life. That seems to have waned, which thank the Lord, because my hair is thin enough as is. This summer was also really bad for stomach issues. To be quite frank, everything I ate came out of me in liquid poop soup form hours later. Unfortunately even that didn’t cause any weight loss. However, thankfully that seems to have dropped off. Especially because I am NOT one for wanting to use public restrooms in that regard. Dr thought it was thyroid because ALL my symptoms related to that, but test came back on the low side, but still in the normal range. The only real thing they found out in the last appointment, is that in some point in my life, apparently I’ve had mono. It’s part of the herpes family so once you have it, it’s always in your system. I don’t know if that has any effect of why I’m feeling the way I do NOW, but its interesting information at any rate, since I don’t know when I had it. I’ve been tired consistently for about 2 years now though.
So right now my main focus is going to be to try to lose the weight. My doctor won’t prescribe me anything to help, which is a bit of a downer. I am not a fan of taking pills but I feel like I need SOMETHING to give me a kick start. I will be the first to admit that I’m not up in the gym every day, but I don’t think she realizes how HARD that is for me, when I’m practically falling asleep at my desk I’m so tired. Beyond that however, the weight gain, shouldn’t be happening. I am active, it’s not like I’m sitting all day every day ( I even joined a bowling league!). I eat, probably more than most people, but it’s not like the amount I’m eating has increased. I shouldn’t be gaining this much weight by maintaining. I would think I’d taper off at some point. I used to not have much issues at all, until I was part of a research study. UGH anyway, I’m trying to go to the gym more. RaeAnn, my friend, is moving into town so I think we will be going to the gym together. The buddy system, of sorts, and I think that will help get me there. Also, whether this is an intelligent move or not I’m taking these Bob Harper Smart Weight Loss pills, and using myfitnesspal.com to track my calories and what not. The only thing that concerns me about the pills is they have a lot of caffeine in them. I am not a girl who drinks much coffee or pop and I have a heart arrhythmia. But…so far they’ve been ok. Oh and I have some weird lump on the right side of my neck that may need to be ultra sounded.
ANNNYWAY enough about health crap. My social life has pretty much been awesome lately. I’ve gained some new friends and there hasn’t really been MUCH drama to speak of. As mentioned, I joined a bowling league with some work people, and even though I’m not very good, it’s been a lot of fun. Work is not a joy in my life, but it is what it is, and until I can find something that pays more than $10 starting out, I’m stuck there. Luckily I like the people I work with, so that makes it much more bearable. Even though it’s getting darker earlier and is December, I have yet to have any of my seasonal affective disorder depression-ness creep up on me. I’m hoping this will continue. Guy situation….is not what I’d like. The one guy I want, isn’t the one I should have. We had a fling for a couple months about a year ago and while I haven’t been obsessed with me, the attraction there never left. We see each other a lot as we work at the same company so that doesn’t help. The worst part is personality wise, I realize he can be kind of an ass. However, there is this huge sexual attraction between us, which is nuts because physically he isn’t even my type. I’m really not into Pete any longer although he will always be my friend, and unfortunately is my fallback when I’m drunk and horny. I haven’t even seen him in a year though, so it’s a safe fallback. Harlan is coming to visit me in January, which I’m SUPER excited about. Not really a sexual attraction there any longer either, but he is without a doubt my best friend with a penis. And I know I’m his best friend with a vagina.
I’ve been reading a lot lately and watching a lot of Netflix for my “wind down” time. It’s hard for me to watch movies and really get involved though since, I feel the need to multitask.