just understand
what the hell am i supposed to think about this now?
my stepmom forwarded me an email between her and my aunt shannon. she talked about my dad plannin to come up here for my graduation. how she "wishes i would treat him better than i do." that i "dont understand how much he loves me and everything hes done for me." that he "thinks about me every x-mas and w/ child support." my aunt shannon repling that ill realize how much he loves me when i get older. that i need some "growing up."
i dont need any more time to realize that i dont want him in my life. that ive become the person i am WITHOUT him. but then i wonder...how will this affect my kids when i get around to havin em? will it hurt them if i dont talk to him? will i end up putting up w/ him for their sake? will things turn out differently in the end?
i know it could have been worse. i know that i should be happy that it isnt worse. but should that make me happy enough to put up w/ his shit? should he get off the hook just because there are worse ppl, fathers, in the world?
i wish they would all just understand.
@-,`---
my stepmom forwarded me an email between her and my aunt shannon. she talked about my dad plannin to come up here for my graduation. how she "wishes i would treat him better than i do." that i "dont understand how much he loves me and everything hes done for me." that he "thinks about me every x-mas and w/ child support." my aunt shannon repling that ill realize how much he loves me when i get older. that i need some "growing up."
i dont need any more time to realize that i dont want him in my life. that ive become the person i am WITHOUT him. but then i wonder...how will this affect my kids when i get around to havin em? will it hurt them if i dont talk to him? will i end up putting up w/ him for their sake? will things turn out differently in the end?
i know it could have been worse. i know that i should be happy that it isnt worse. but should that make me happy enough to put up w/ his shit? should he get off the hook just because there are worse ppl, fathers, in the world?
i wish they would all just understand.
@-,`---