an update for once
fuck fuck fuck. so yea im updatiing my journal, and i bet nobody was expecting this and neither was i. this was perhaps the last thing on my list of evrything to do, but hey im doin it anyway. so yea things are different. worked tonight at el zaharias and smoked a cigarette at the bar with paul as i waited for jos to come get me adn we ere gonna go to the fair tonight but we ended up going to the who instead (guh) i really didnt want to be there i ont want to be around people but it seems i have to anyway and it sucks. i just want to be alone and not do anything i ont want to go to school i dont want to go to work and not see anyone or talk to anyone. i just want complete silence and solitary time to do with what i please to.but FUCK im not gonna get it. jesus titty fucking christ im pissed and emo and i dont fucking know its all a fucking flood of everything. god dammit all to hell FUCK ME FUCKING JUST FUCK ME SMITE ME OH MIGHTY SMITER. just fuck it. if anyone reads this tonight call me.