Finally a comment about dropping roleplaying...
So I royally fucked myself over with Taxon. I was pretty damn sure I had taken care of stuff. Well l-o-fucking-l it must have been a flippin' dream. Every have one of those? Something that seems real, especially when you're bloody getting stuff done, and then realize, oh guess what it wasn't. Well fuck it. I can't even read the replies to my drop post. I'm... wary. I don't normally panic about this sort of thing, but I am.
Sigh.
I wanted to give a better explanation. I wanted to take care of Paixao and Taxon at the same time, but I didn't. I blundered ahead with Paixao for a really foolish reason and that knocked everything off balance. Tch. It was silly bitterness. I never should have.... whatever.
Some of you already knew something like this was coming. I was pretty cryptic all around the communication board. I’m not entirely sure where it came from myself, honestly. I think some of it was reading my sixth grade class journal, which I laughed about at the time, but… god have I changed as a person. I think I might’ve still even been a good student in sixth grade, or at least strived more for it than I do… well, anything nowadays.
No one was at fault for me dropping my characters everywhere. I needed to change. I needed to start with something that has been a string connected to me for a very long time. I did the math. As a total I think I’ve been roleplaying for eleven years - at least. LJRP has been about five of those years.
So, I’ve got the tag “something has to change.” I haven’t touched this… ever. It hit me a few weekends ago (when did this start?) that I was sick of it. I wanted to be cut of all my strings, wanted to be… free so if I turn away I don’t have to panic about the things I need to do behind me. I didn’t want to even be on the laptop (I've gotten better since, but every now and then I just need to get away from it).
I did some redecorating. I bought a bookcase that I really like and did some cleaning.
I'm not... completely gone. I am still modding and NPCing at Paixao. I will not leave the players and the mod team behind like that, and doing some of the more mundane mod duties has a calming effect. Also, you can catch me around various museboxes :3 Those aren’t binding, see? They’re not a problem.
So no, I’m not quitting the internet. I may not be around as much, but I’ll still be on it. You guys can’t get rid of me that easily! And duh, I’ll still be on FFXI probably more active too. FFXI gives me a lot of help writing Overcast.
On a side note, please, if anyone bums about this and me on the anon meme or RP!S, let them. I… don’t really care. I’m not going to worry about it. Why should I? Let anons be anons. They're never going to change. It'll probably happen, so, whatever. I probably won't check RP!S anymore (I haven't lately, actually); I'm sure if anything Paixao-related creeps up, the others will tell me.
God, this is why I can't do relationships. I hate those binding strings. So much. It's amazing I lasted with RP this long.
Sigh.
I wanted to give a better explanation. I wanted to take care of Paixao and Taxon at the same time, but I didn't. I blundered ahead with Paixao for a really foolish reason and that knocked everything off balance. Tch. It was silly bitterness. I never should have.... whatever.
Some of you already knew something like this was coming. I was pretty cryptic all around the communication board. I’m not entirely sure where it came from myself, honestly. I think some of it was reading my sixth grade class journal, which I laughed about at the time, but… god have I changed as a person. I think I might’ve still even been a good student in sixth grade, or at least strived more for it than I do… well, anything nowadays.
No one was at fault for me dropping my characters everywhere. I needed to change. I needed to start with something that has been a string connected to me for a very long time. I did the math. As a total I think I’ve been roleplaying for eleven years - at least. LJRP has been about five of those years.
So, I’ve got the tag “something has to change.” I haven’t touched this… ever. It hit me a few weekends ago (when did this start?) that I was sick of it. I wanted to be cut of all my strings, wanted to be… free so if I turn away I don’t have to panic about the things I need to do behind me. I didn’t want to even be on the laptop (I've gotten better since, but every now and then I just need to get away from it).
I did some redecorating. I bought a bookcase that I really like and did some cleaning.
I'm not... completely gone. I am still modding and NPCing at Paixao. I will not leave the players and the mod team behind like that, and doing some of the more mundane mod duties has a calming effect. Also, you can catch me around various museboxes :3 Those aren’t binding, see? They’re not a problem.
So no, I’m not quitting the internet. I may not be around as much, but I’ll still be on it. You guys can’t get rid of me that easily! And duh, I’ll still be on FFXI probably more active too. FFXI gives me a lot of help writing Overcast.
On a side note, please, if anyone bums about this and me on the anon meme or RP!S, let them. I… don’t really care. I’m not going to worry about it. Why should I? Let anons be anons. They're never going to change. It'll probably happen, so, whatever. I probably won't check RP!S anymore (I haven't lately, actually); I'm sure if anything Paixao-related creeps up, the others will tell me.
God, this is why I can't do relationships. I hate those binding strings. So much. It's amazing I lasted with RP this long.