Love=Trouble, Read this drama
I need to find a guy that I like a lot, one that I have had a crush on before and that I have crush on now. One that I am not that close with yet, someone who is like a closed book to me, not yet read. I think when I really start to liek someone and create a crush, I get to know them more and more and more, until they either become a bore to me or that I'm to scared to go out with them, because of how it would turn out. I know the "getting bored with them" thing is kind of vain, but its kinda true, I have a low attention span, unless I'm really into it. My type of guy is a bad-boy who's sweet, yet I'm not taking my chances with any of them. I know a lot of people thing I am a flirt and yea, I know I am. But thats how I react with people, I don't even really pay attention to wether I'm flirting or not, which lies the problem. I need to pay more attention to how I'm acting, I don't like being lead on and nor do I want to be the person who does that. My mom says its high school and I'm supposed to flirt not look for a guy, but I need a guy to keep me grounded, but with some of the guys that have said they liked me or have asked me out... I don't see a connection, ones that I like and probably are leading me on, I get a connection with for some odd strange reason. Yet, this is my mind and I've taken some time to sort out my thoughts and feelings trying to come up with the one big thing that makes me not want to go out with Sebby or those other guys and its this: I simply see no connection, I do not like them enough to go out with them and I don't want to have the problem of breaking up and not being friends, because I know that right now we can be friends. With someone else that I'm not totally friends with and I like him and he likes me, then it would be ok, because even if we break up not being friends wouldn't be an issue, because we weren't friends in the first place. I don't even know why I'm getting attention from guys now, because as far as I'm concerned no one has ever seen me more as a irritating blonde girl with her head in the clouds. Yea, I must say that getting attention from guys can be pretty cool, but it's also really irritating, like all of this drama thats going on right now. Plus Ryan is being creepy and blaming me for the poster thing, Cody keeps asking me out and I can't even talk to Sebby with out a sharp suffering pain peircing my head. If you want to leave me a comment, thats great, but if you would like to mock me for my thoughts and feelings than keep it to yourself and save it for someone who cares. I know I'm the dumbest blonde put on the face of the earth.
Still no love
Gwen
Friend You were wild and crazy and just like me, You could be anything you wanted to be. Although you have more freckles and your smile is much more wide We looked like each other from every which way and side. When you were upset you cried on my shoulder, And I hope I can cry on yours even when were older. We are more than best friends; we are sisters, we two of a kind. We will never see each others faults; it is like we are blind. When someone messes with you I am right there, And when I was alone and upset, you were the one who gave a care. Spending the night and Laughing in light We are two halves of one whole, Tied together into one soul. Nobody knows what we know, Or can break the thread that we have sewn. I can spot your smiling face, From miles away with out a trace. You are generous and caring. Thoughtful and daring. You are strong and witty and Blessed and pretty. You are my best friend, Till the end.