Perspective
I am a something. Shaman's a good word for it. Cunningman is too, but that one's obscure to the point of near uselessness. But I don't have much call to do it. I can't work much with terriergirl because it is hard to get what I want out of the picture. And that wouldn't be fair to her. Then there's the ever widening rings of friends, most of whom are capable, intelligent, spiritual people who can do their own work.
Now, I'm not complaining. It's nice to not have people in need ringing the bell at all hours. Gives me free time for myself and my family. But I'm of the belief that you don't really do the work for fun or practice. You do it to do it. Which means I don't do it very often. Which means after a long time, I start to wonder if it will still be there when I reach for it. Then, out of the blue comes a moment, just a tiny moment where I reach, and it's there and I have something more than just me to give to someone in need. Then I let go and it's gone again. But I would have felt sad and alone if it hadn't been there.
Now, I'm not complaining. It's nice to not have people in need ringing the bell at all hours. Gives me free time for myself and my family. But I'm of the belief that you don't really do the work for fun or practice. You do it to do it. Which means I don't do it very often. Which means after a long time, I start to wonder if it will still be there when I reach for it. Then, out of the blue comes a moment, just a tiny moment where I reach, and it's there and I have something more than just me to give to someone in need. Then I let go and it's gone again. But I would have felt sad and alone if it hadn't been there.