I can't say I'm in the best mood ever.
I'm tired of being... I don't know hwo to explain it... lonely I guess, but not exactly.
I'm not necessarily... god I can't spell that word... lonely, I'm just lacking. Lacking someone to really talk to. Nobody ever actually opens up to me anymore, or lets me open up to them without some sort of fight. It sucks.
Anyway, today was crappy sorta. School was pretty decent, but now going home I had a talk with my mother. Well, she almost didn't let me go out for cross country. I had to fight with her for it. Then, later she starts telling me that I'm going to be driving a complete piece of shit for a car because she doesn't want to pay the insurance, when after the first year I'll be paying it anyway. Yeah, that means I have to get off my lazy ass and get a job.
I guess I just don't really want to get one because I just don't want to grow up in all reality. I want to be a kid forever, and that just can't happen. At the same time, though, I want to. I want to move on, out of high school.. and maybe find someone that actually cares about this. About me.
I'm just complaining too much maybe? Perhaps. I hate having to miss that track meet Monday, grrrr.
Also, my mom told me that because of how Amanda's split with me hurt my grades, that I need to stay single and away from girls until after college. She got mad when I told her that she's being stupid and that she couldn't control me or my feelings.
Whatever, stupid whore.
That's all, really. Peace out! COMMENT! :-P
I'm not necessarily... god I can't spell that word... lonely, I'm just lacking. Lacking someone to really talk to. Nobody ever actually opens up to me anymore, or lets me open up to them without some sort of fight. It sucks.
Anyway, today was crappy sorta. School was pretty decent, but now going home I had a talk with my mother. Well, she almost didn't let me go out for cross country. I had to fight with her for it. Then, later she starts telling me that I'm going to be driving a complete piece of shit for a car because she doesn't want to pay the insurance, when after the first year I'll be paying it anyway. Yeah, that means I have to get off my lazy ass and get a job.
I guess I just don't really want to get one because I just don't want to grow up in all reality. I want to be a kid forever, and that just can't happen. At the same time, though, I want to. I want to move on, out of high school.. and maybe find someone that actually cares about this. About me.
I'm just complaining too much maybe? Perhaps. I hate having to miss that track meet Monday, grrrr.
Also, my mom told me that because of how Amanda's split with me hurt my grades, that I need to stay single and away from girls until after college. She got mad when I told her that she's being stupid and that she couldn't control me or my feelings.
Whatever, stupid whore.
That's all, really. Peace out! COMMENT! :-P