Ugh
Let's see...
I'm thinking strongly about being a temple worker at the Oakland temple- yay! I can catch a ride every thur afternoon with a couple in our branch presidency.
I'm starting to sub again but it's reeeally really slow. Like maybe once a week I might get a job if I'm lucky, which isn't enough for rent let alone food and gas etc. Financially life sucks. I currently won't make it come October.
My dad and I are getting along... good.
The guy I dated after the breakup- is engaged to my friend now(the one he was making out with while dating me), and will be getting married in January.
Joy. Not.
My Ex has a girlfriend in Stockton and brought her to the Beach Trip I was at, but luckily I only later saw pictues of them all couple-y.( was no nauseous from it I couldn't eat anything without a gag reflex) He has only 1 friend in the branch who is also mentally handicapped- no one likes him. Whic brings pity from me when it should bring satisfaction.
Ben is in love with me, but he's still an athiest and doesn't want a family. A lot of my friends here were pressuring me to get into a relationship with him, even though I told him I could only be his friend. It sucks more with my Ex having someone, that I don't. That I can't, and I believe I'm not supposed to, so yeah, sucks.
So my love life sucks beans.
However I have good friends, I love my apartment, and roommate and I'm getting closer to my family which is good.
I had to have a blessing yesterday because of crap. This is an emotionally toxic place for me to be but I still feel like I'm supposed to be here, which stinks sooo sooo much. I can endure all of this, I can and I must.
I volunteered at the Prop 8 walk thing Sat.
If things go well, my roomie and I will be driving out to General Conference in October, so hopefully I'll be able to see some of you guys.
I'm active on facebook.
Still no internet of my own. I'm waiting for this trasitional trial of faith to be over.
I'm thinking strongly about being a temple worker at the Oakland temple- yay! I can catch a ride every thur afternoon with a couple in our branch presidency.
I'm starting to sub again but it's reeeally really slow. Like maybe once a week I might get a job if I'm lucky, which isn't enough for rent let alone food and gas etc. Financially life sucks. I currently won't make it come October.
My dad and I are getting along... good.
The guy I dated after the breakup- is engaged to my friend now(the one he was making out with while dating me), and will be getting married in January.
Joy. Not.
My Ex has a girlfriend in Stockton and brought her to the Beach Trip I was at, but luckily I only later saw pictues of them all couple-y.( was no nauseous from it I couldn't eat anything without a gag reflex) He has only 1 friend in the branch who is also mentally handicapped- no one likes him. Whic brings pity from me when it should bring satisfaction.
Ben is in love with me, but he's still an athiest and doesn't want a family. A lot of my friends here were pressuring me to get into a relationship with him, even though I told him I could only be his friend. It sucks more with my Ex having someone, that I don't. That I can't, and I believe I'm not supposed to, so yeah, sucks.
So my love life sucks beans.
However I have good friends, I love my apartment, and roommate and I'm getting closer to my family which is good.
I had to have a blessing yesterday because of crap. This is an emotionally toxic place for me to be but I still feel like I'm supposed to be here, which stinks sooo sooo much. I can endure all of this, I can and I must.
I volunteered at the Prop 8 walk thing Sat.
If things go well, my roomie and I will be driving out to General Conference in October, so hopefully I'll be able to see some of you guys.
I'm active on facebook.
Still no internet of my own. I'm waiting for this trasitional trial of faith to be over.