random thoughts and complaints
it seems the more i try to make the world work for me, the more i just end up working for nothing. i finally bought a car last week. i got insurance and a plate. i even got the spark plugs and wires changed. my car stopped running three hours after i got it. i really need to find more work that pays. i decided to reduce my dance classes to 2 times a week due to the fact that my wedsnday and thursday teachers don't want me there. i even wonder if i'll ever be good enough to be a teacher there. Jamie seems to think so.
today is valentines day and i get to celebrate by myself. i can't find my girlfriend and i'm not at home so i can't call her. i'm at svsu. i only have 50 cents on me and my ride is on the way. i wish i could call her. i wish i could make her see how much i need her around more often. i don't need to see her everyday, but more often. i need her now. i'm so lonley right now. everyone seems to be too busy to care about me right now....maybe later. Andrea and i had a fight. i'm really upset at the fact that i can't see her when i want. it's not her fault. it's not my fault. it just is. that's our reality.
i can't take care of myself. every break i get falls through. sometimes i feel like i'm bugging GOD with all my prayers. it seems i need to suffer right now. maybe i need to be a worm a little longer...or a lot longer. when will my life turn around. when will i be a man. when will my efforts start to pay off. when wil it be warm out again. i hate the cold.
today is valentines day and i get to celebrate by myself. i can't find my girlfriend and i'm not at home so i can't call her. i'm at svsu. i only have 50 cents on me and my ride is on the way. i wish i could call her. i wish i could make her see how much i need her around more often. i don't need to see her everyday, but more often. i need her now. i'm so lonley right now. everyone seems to be too busy to care about me right now....maybe later. Andrea and i had a fight. i'm really upset at the fact that i can't see her when i want. it's not her fault. it's not my fault. it just is. that's our reality.
i can't take care of myself. every break i get falls through. sometimes i feel like i'm bugging GOD with all my prayers. it seems i need to suffer right now. maybe i need to be a worm a little longer...or a lot longer. when will my life turn around. when will i be a man. when will my efforts start to pay off. when wil it be warm out again. i hate the cold.