Commentary on April 15th post
On the night of April 15th I said:
"scene cut
T_T
I hate feeling like there isn't anything I can do to help.
As much as I want to help.
Why do I get so emotional over the friends I meet.
Its not like they would ever do the same for me.
One thing for certain though,
I am going to miss him so so much.
He doesn't know how much I valued his friendship.
and even now I can hardly type because my eyes
keep welling up with tears.
Why does he never answer his phone?!
I hope he'll be okay.
I guess all I can do now is pray.
Once again, the curtain falls. the end of another scene.
to add to this movie, this life.
EDIT:
YAY he called!!!
2 minutes after I had posted this. how funny.
... how funny."
LOL
I feel so stupid about this post now that I look back ... it wasn't even that serious.
Well ... at the time I was mad worried. Because a lot of strange things was happening around the school.
Suddenly. Outta no nowhere. He stopped by my place to give me back a bowl I lent him and to say goodbye.
And he said he couldn't take it anymore.
and was LEAVING TOWN!
Thats the real reason I was scared.
I didn't know what happened to push him over the edge like that, and I didn't know what he had planned to do. leaving like that in the middle of the school semester.
Anyway. Later on that week,
I partly also felt like he was abandoning me to face the wolves alone. And it was really so. I was known as "that girl" who hung out with him. XD So when he went missing I did feel watched more than usual.
Waaaaay too much drama, and issues, and conspiracies for me to take in all at once.
I must be trapped in a movie or something. XD
Anyway,
on a recent note. We are still friends just not as close, talk once in a blue moon. We've taken opposite paths. I can understand the paranoia and I see eye to eye with what's REALLY going on in society. the truth that is hidden behind fake truths. BUT his approach is death and destruction. Ultimate avenge and punishment. He quoted to me someone who said to know is to be in rage. something like that.
Which i completely understand too. I HATE what is going on. And I do want it to stop. But I wish there could be another way other than wanting to destroy the world sethroth style. XD lol.
(goes on a Final Fantasy 7 rant)
Man! Aerith was mad weak! How is she gonna sit there praying and get stabbed?!!!! yeah yeah, she is a part of the life stream now and helps in that aspect. But there is no way I'd go down that easily. XD lol
Yes, kill the Mako reactors! and down with shinra! ... but destroy the world to start over? omg. lol.
(end of FF7 talk)
We talked about having super powers before, and what we'd use them for. And I was afraid to say mine ... that it would ... not be for his side. XD If I had powers it would not be for destruction.
I gave him a quote back.
'Beware when fighting with monsters lest ye shall become a monster'
I don't think he understood it.
which could mean this is how it was meant to be.
*deep sighs*
That is all.
"scene cut
T_T
I hate feeling like there isn't anything I can do to help.
As much as I want to help.
Why do I get so emotional over the friends I meet.
Its not like they would ever do the same for me.
One thing for certain though,
I am going to miss him so so much.
He doesn't know how much I valued his friendship.
and even now I can hardly type because my eyes
keep welling up with tears.
Why does he never answer his phone?!
I hope he'll be okay.
I guess all I can do now is pray.
Once again, the curtain falls. the end of another scene.
to add to this movie, this life.
EDIT:
YAY he called!!!
2 minutes after I had posted this. how funny.
... how funny."
LOL
I feel so stupid about this post now that I look back ... it wasn't even that serious.
Well ... at the time I was mad worried. Because a lot of strange things was happening around the school.
Suddenly. Outta no nowhere. He stopped by my place to give me back a bowl I lent him and to say goodbye.
And he said he couldn't take it anymore.
and was LEAVING TOWN!
Thats the real reason I was scared.
I didn't know what happened to push him over the edge like that, and I didn't know what he had planned to do. leaving like that in the middle of the school semester.
Anyway. Later on that week,
I partly also felt like he was abandoning me to face the wolves alone. And it was really so. I was known as "that girl" who hung out with him. XD So when he went missing I did feel watched more than usual.
Waaaaay too much drama, and issues, and conspiracies for me to take in all at once.
I must be trapped in a movie or something. XD
Anyway,
on a recent note. We are still friends just not as close, talk once in a blue moon. We've taken opposite paths. I can understand the paranoia and I see eye to eye with what's REALLY going on in society. the truth that is hidden behind fake truths. BUT his approach is death and destruction. Ultimate avenge and punishment. He quoted to me someone who said to know is to be in rage. something like that.
Which i completely understand too. I HATE what is going on. And I do want it to stop. But I wish there could be another way other than wanting to destroy the world sethroth style. XD lol.
(goes on a Final Fantasy 7 rant)
Man! Aerith was mad weak! How is she gonna sit there praying and get stabbed?!!!! yeah yeah, she is a part of the life stream now and helps in that aspect. But there is no way I'd go down that easily. XD lol
Yes, kill the Mako reactors! and down with shinra! ... but destroy the world to start over? omg. lol.
(end of FF7 talk)
We talked about having super powers before, and what we'd use them for. And I was afraid to say mine ... that it would ... not be for his side. XD If I had powers it would not be for destruction.
I gave him a quote back.
'Beware when fighting with monsters lest ye shall become a monster'
I don't think he understood it.
which could mean this is how it was meant to be.
*deep sighs*
That is all.