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Dear God
What am I supposed to be doing? I sit here wondering why I can't find a programming job. I wonder why the last year and a half I worked as a liquor store manager. I wonder why I have a strong desire to volunteer as a fire-fighter. I wonder if you are trying to suggest something to me, without telling me its what I'm supposed to do.
And while I sit here wondering a show about the 9-11 terrorist acts ... the day I decided I wanted to volunteer.
I'm scared to make the decision that I'm starting to feel that you are suggesting. I'm starting to think maybe you want me to go career. I don't know if I have the skills, the abilities, but I have the heart, I'm just scared to make that decision.
Why? I just moved here, so that ed and I could get serious about building our company. If I continue to stay out of the industry will I really be able to run a tech company? If I become a fire-fighter will I want to run a tech company?
Can I afford to become a fire-fighter? Will I earn enough money? I have so much debt now, I've been so stupid with cashflow. And to top it all off now I owe my best friend 3+K for the last months bills, and I'm 2 months behind on almost all my bills.
I wish I understood what you wanted for me, rather, how you wanted me to do it.
I laughed when I watched Bruce Almighty. 'How could he not see the signs' I asked. And now I ask, 'How do I know they're really signs?' How?
Help me. Please?
Yours
--Jay Leask
What am I supposed to be doing? I sit here wondering why I can't find a programming job. I wonder why the last year and a half I worked as a liquor store manager. I wonder why I have a strong desire to volunteer as a fire-fighter. I wonder if you are trying to suggest something to me, without telling me its what I'm supposed to do.
And while I sit here wondering a show about the 9-11 terrorist acts ... the day I decided I wanted to volunteer.
I'm scared to make the decision that I'm starting to feel that you are suggesting. I'm starting to think maybe you want me to go career. I don't know if I have the skills, the abilities, but I have the heart, I'm just scared to make that decision.
Why? I just moved here, so that ed and I could get serious about building our company. If I continue to stay out of the industry will I really be able to run a tech company? If I become a fire-fighter will I want to run a tech company?
Can I afford to become a fire-fighter? Will I earn enough money? I have so much debt now, I've been so stupid with cashflow. And to top it all off now I owe my best friend 3+K for the last months bills, and I'm 2 months behind on almost all my bills.
I wish I understood what you wanted for me, rather, how you wanted me to do it.
I laughed when I watched Bruce Almighty. 'How could he not see the signs' I asked. And now I ask, 'How do I know they're really signs?' How?
Help me. Please?
Yours
--Jay Leask