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I need to get this out of my system so I don't send it to her
I can't do this. I hate this. This ever-lasting limbo as you figure your life out. For 6 years we've been in limbo, we finally get ourselves together, finally say what we've been thinking, and now even though you said you were ready, you're not. Funny, I've been there, sometimes I still am, but I couldn't pass this up, you up.
I know you're going through alot. That I could never understand it, that's why I won't claim to. I mean, I do understand, I just can't imagine it. But no, I'm sitting her waiting. Wondering if I should call. Wishing I could call. Wanting to call. And I can't, I won't be that needy to you. I won't cling. I won't sufficate our friendship for immediate satisfaction.
But I'm leaving. In a little over a month I'll be gone, as you've reminded me over and over. I don't want to waste any time before I leave. I want to know what might come. I want to know for sure if I should wait for you while I'm in Texas. Maybe I'm not supposed to know. Maybe we need another year or two. I wouldn't blame you if you did.
Heck, I expect you do, but I can't answer that for you. You've got to answer that. You've got to tell me.
Or maybe this is you telling me.
*le sigh*
'night world
I can't do this. I hate this. This ever-lasting limbo as you figure your life out. For 6 years we've been in limbo, we finally get ourselves together, finally say what we've been thinking, and now even though you said you were ready, you're not. Funny, I've been there, sometimes I still am, but I couldn't pass this up, you up.
I know you're going through alot. That I could never understand it, that's why I won't claim to. I mean, I do understand, I just can't imagine it. But no, I'm sitting her waiting. Wondering if I should call. Wishing I could call. Wanting to call. And I can't, I won't be that needy to you. I won't cling. I won't sufficate our friendship for immediate satisfaction.
But I'm leaving. In a little over a month I'll be gone, as you've reminded me over and over. I don't want to waste any time before I leave. I want to know what might come. I want to know for sure if I should wait for you while I'm in Texas. Maybe I'm not supposed to know. Maybe we need another year or two. I wouldn't blame you if you did.
Heck, I expect you do, but I can't answer that for you. You've got to answer that. You've got to tell me.
Or maybe this is you telling me.
*le sigh*
'night world