help wanted.
well..it seems as though i'm single again. for real this time. and it really hurts.
i know i've pretty much abandoned everyone besides him, and i feel really terrible for that, because i was always one of the people who swore they would never do that if i got a long term boyfriend. i was wrong. and i'm really sorry. it meant that, not only did i not have anyone to turn to when i was having problems, which only led to more problems, but now i feel like i pretty much lost most of my close friends. i mean, i still have my friends, but i'm sure a lot of you feel like i pushed you away.
but now that i'm on my own again, i'm trying to make amends. i want to be able to hang out with people and have a good time.
and it's not just friends i'm looking for. i can't stand being alone. i know it's silly, but i really do need a boy...you know...someone to reassure me that i'm bearable, because it seems as though i'm not.
i don't want it to sound like i'm suddenly throwing myself at all eligble bachelors, or that i'm looking for some rebound action. i'm not. i just want to have the opportunity to meet new people and whatnot.
god, i'm so pathetic. sorry, kids. i'm trying to function properly, but it's really hard.