now i'm more than just a little curious...

[spiralingstares]

i have a problem with being angry with her.
and it's weird feeling as though i got in a fight with her.
we haven't spoken in over a year.
because we can't.

i speak to her. she can't respond.
she's fucking gone.
and i'm mad at her for it.

so i feel like we're in a fight because we're not speaking
and when i was trying to write a note to her
she made the pen stop working
so she gets away with all this bullshit
because she's dead.