hey its been awhile
hmm it seems like i never know what to do in life <----- sounds like me well hey all been awhile since i put anything on here well life in all over the place im happy im sad im indiffernt w/e skools going good and work well work is wqork i really like someone there or i thought i did but the ore i think about it the more i relize that i shouldnt even try cause its just not gonna work cause it never does i guess im just blah about shit i let charlie know that i like her but she just laughed at me and said that shes taken right now but were like best friends and well im ojn probation and im still fucking my life up just now with sumthin worse oh well.
lonliness is my life i dont really talk to anyone anymore and just keep to myself i talk to some friends now and then but never really about anything real im just going through my life and taking a slege hammer and knocking everything over its pretty fun sometimes being self destructive while being responsible for it all im never happy anymore but im not depressed like i said since my real bad depression it seems like i cant fall back into it as much as i wish i could sometimes (more self-destructiveness)well im tired and im gonna go take a shower and go to bed ill ttyl and hey ashley since u and jamie are the only people who can read this call me sometime
lonliness is my life i dont really talk to anyone anymore and just keep to myself i talk to some friends now and then but never really about anything real im just going through my life and taking a slege hammer and knocking everything over its pretty fun sometimes being self destructive while being responsible for it all im never happy anymore but im not depressed like i said since my real bad depression it seems like i cant fall back into it as much as i wish i could sometimes (more self-destructiveness)well im tired and im gonna go take a shower and go to bed ill ttyl and hey ashley since u and jamie are the only people who can read this call me sometime