Apr 01, 2009 02:46
If only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only.
Omg, I am about to kill myself.
Being negative, I really hate myself and my life.
Being positive, sometimes somethings just don't happen the way you want it to. It's part and parcel of life. Maybe what you want is not what you need or some might say "God has a better plan for you". But if you really want it, work hard, and you might get it. Afterall, you'll only cherish something when it is hard earned. The only bad thing is, you have to waste years of your life.
And then the angel and demon starts talking in my mind, leaving me alone to deal with my mixed feelings. And a few days later, when the thoughts stop spinning in my head, I'll just be back to the same old good-for-nothing.