Damage

[spinster_16]

I'm having a rough night.

I made the mistake of watching something sad, involving death and now I'm a mess.

Fall is here and it's beautiful, my favourite season. Though Fall to me is all about new beginnings it has also provided me with memories of the past.

My friend, I miss you dearly. I think about you often and am so happy for you. Truth...I've wanted to reach out and connect but my depression gets in the way. I know it's stupid but I'm sad. I'm sad about how our friendship was so unbreakable, you gave me four amazing years then our friendship fizzled out. I was and am still heartbroken. It took time but we eventually found each other again, for which I am so thankful!

My thoughts are all over the place, words are failing me.

This season remimds me of my Grandparents. I miss them so much!

I'm going to stop the sadness here.

I'm looking forward to my new beginning.

I'm looking forward to going for a walk with my loves, to breathing in the fresh crisp air and to drinking apple and pumpkiny drinks.

I'm looking forward to new experiences, to learning, to listening, to being.

Love.