you have only been gone 10 days...
... and i'd give anything to hold you again.
so this is my customary 10 day post. its been 10 days since i left home. and i feel like a million things have happpneed since then. i brought my leaders box to college with me. because i know that when i lose my leaders high, i am going to be here. not at my house, and certainly not at home. i've been having crazy leaders flashbacks all week. we had a thing called convocation yesterday. which was basically an induction. the senior class had a candle lit, and passed the flame to each class. and then they all lit one big candle. there were candles at my induction to college. i almost cried.
i'm good most of the time. but i get these moments occasssionally where i remember what it is to be loved. to not have to search for someone to give a hug. or to share a secret. i miss having just automatic friends. i feel like i have forgotten how to make friends here. i am living in your pictures. i am living in your letters. i am trying so hard to remember what love is. and to try to keep it all inside of me.
this sounds horribly depressing. i'm not like this usually. but right now i cant stop thinking about it. i wish i could be home. when i go to camps or weeeks that suck i always think of how in a few days i will be home. but now this has to be home. these have to be my friends. its wierd.
anywyas. 10 days. and already i'm wasting away.
amisorra
maddie
does anyone know how to find luis? i'd give absolutely anything to talk to him
so this is my customary 10 day post. its been 10 days since i left home. and i feel like a million things have happpneed since then. i brought my leaders box to college with me. because i know that when i lose my leaders high, i am going to be here. not at my house, and certainly not at home. i've been having crazy leaders flashbacks all week. we had a thing called convocation yesterday. which was basically an induction. the senior class had a candle lit, and passed the flame to each class. and then they all lit one big candle. there were candles at my induction to college. i almost cried.
i'm good most of the time. but i get these moments occasssionally where i remember what it is to be loved. to not have to search for someone to give a hug. or to share a secret. i miss having just automatic friends. i feel like i have forgotten how to make friends here. i am living in your pictures. i am living in your letters. i am trying so hard to remember what love is. and to try to keep it all inside of me.
this sounds horribly depressing. i'm not like this usually. but right now i cant stop thinking about it. i wish i could be home. when i go to camps or weeeks that suck i always think of how in a few days i will be home. but now this has to be home. these have to be my friends. its wierd.
anywyas. 10 days. and already i'm wasting away.
amisorra
maddie
does anyone know how to find luis? i'd give absolutely anything to talk to him