would you hold me because i'm lonely
so this morning at 8:30 my dad was admitted to the emergency room at melrose wakefield hospital. they want to keep him overnight so he can be hooked up to an IV. i guess deep down part of me knows he'll be ok. but the better part of me is really worried. thats my dad in there. i want him to be ok.
at 11 a close friend called and told me she was leaving her house for personal reasons and she really needed my help. i didnt know then i had a car so i told her i couldnt. and now i cant find her. and her phone doesnt pick up. and i feel like i've let her down. but i'm also scared that she didnt get out in time.
i dunno. it could be worse right? it always could be worse. thats what miss lesnever used to tell me. and right now i want to believe that. but shes not around to remind me. it seems like no one is around. thats how my whole summer has been. and now i need someone. and i'm having trouble being a big kid and holding my own hand. i wish someone would just hold me. hold my hand. or hold my soul. and tell me its ok. that both of those people are ok. that things will be ok.
maddie
wont you pick up the phone?
at 11 a close friend called and told me she was leaving her house for personal reasons and she really needed my help. i didnt know then i had a car so i told her i couldnt. and now i cant find her. and her phone doesnt pick up. and i feel like i've let her down. but i'm also scared that she didnt get out in time.
i dunno. it could be worse right? it always could be worse. thats what miss lesnever used to tell me. and right now i want to believe that. but shes not around to remind me. it seems like no one is around. thats how my whole summer has been. and now i need someone. and i'm having trouble being a big kid and holding my own hand. i wish someone would just hold me. hold my hand. or hold my soul. and tell me its ok. that both of those people are ok. that things will be ok.
maddie
wont you pick up the phone?