theres no place like home

[spinsincircles]

i just got back from watching the devil wears prada. it was really good. i am glad i saw it. it made me think. the main character was so unhappy and she kept giving up the things that made her happy for a job. is that going to be me? i hope not. but money rules the world. you cant live without money. you cant survive without a job. do you ever look up at the stars at night? just stop and look and breathe in. or wake up early just to see the sunrise? do you ever long to feel apart of something bigger than yourself? i do. i dont think i could give that up for a job. but i hate that i dont have much of a choice. there needs to be money. and no one gets paid the big bucks to sit on elephant rock and stare of into the distance. i need a rush. i drove around after the movie. blasting guster. and i thought to myself this is what she does to me. she frees me. and a little voice inside me said, it wasnt her. and its right. it wasnt her. i freed me. this was all me.

who am i? i thought maybe i knew. now i'm not so sure.

amisorra
maddie