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[spinninghead]

I searched through a lot of dust and clutter to find my Hello Kitty i-zone camera. I remembered it recently and wanted to find it and see if I could still use it. I really like it, and I really do want to use it again... but the maddening thing is that they've stopped making these, along with the film for it. I bid on some film for it on ebay,

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[guided_by_grace]

Rose, I'm not sure what you are referring to when you say that you've been "a disapointment" to me or that you're "not 'perfect'" according to me. The only thing I can come up with is that you somehow think I took you off my friends list because of your post several weeks ago about you and Phillip. But that is not why. If it was, I would have taken you off a lot sooner and it would have been only you I removed. I don't know if you made a practice of checking my info page, but you were one of twelve people I took off my friends list last week. Because of some things going on in my life right now, I made the decision to take my friends list down to a bare minimum of people that were on there for very specific purposes, the main one being a strong bond of friendship evidenced by lots of communication between me and the other person.

Rose, I think you are a really nice person. And I wasn't just blowing smoke when I said that you hold a special place in my heart, just like each of the other people I took off my list. But let's face it. You and I never really connected on a deeper level. We were more acquaintances than friends - not because either of us disliked the other, but simply because that's the way some relationships work out. And right now, I need my friends list to include only those people who are deeply involved in my life. I needed to simplify. I'm very sorry that this need caused so much anger within you. And I'm sorry you think less of me because of it and the way I chose to handle it. But I guess I knew that was a risk I was taking by deciding to take care of myself in this way and trying to create as little drama in the process as possible.

[spinninghead]

You have to admit, with the way your post was worded so vaguely, and it having to do with "spiritual" stuff, there weren't many other things I could have thought of that would make you want to delete me.

Either way, it seems rude and selfish to just up and delete all your "acquaintances" just because you never connected with them on a deeper level. I have had long-time acquaintances turn out to be very close friends of mine later on. If you choose to cut off those people from your life, you're choosing to cut off whatever promise of a deeper relationship you might have had with them. And I really don't see how having "acquaintances" on your friends list could/would drag you down, spiritually. Everyone has different levels of friendship with different people. You can't always be picky and just go "I want ONLY close friendships". Especially with the fact that even though you're close friends with some people right now, in a year or two you might not be. People change, and friendships change. I'm not as close with some people as I once used to be. If I had cut off everyone else in my life besides my closest friends when I was in high school, I wouldn't have some of the close friends I have today, because they were acquaintances back then.

Anyway, if that's all it is, I still don't see what offense there is held against me and anyone else you took off your list. I don't see how it would benefit you to have less friends in a situation where you might be struggling. But suit yourself, and best of luck with those deeper relationships.

[guided_by_grace]

I understand that you can't identify with the person that I am and the needs that produces in me. But as my comment alluded to, the spiritual aspects I'm dealing with are affected by LJ itself. I did not say it was because of the people on my friends list, only that because of this realization I needed to change my interactions on LJ. I'm sorry you took that as meaning something derogatory towards you and that I so obviously hurt your feelings, Rose. That was never my intention.

Best of luck to you as well.