no tweak this week...........
ok so i havnt done any since monday. today is thursday and i think thats a pretty damn big deal. i just talked to carlos. it makes me happy that he calls but i still have alot of doubts. our date went well i was nervous and antsy but he did his best to make me feel comfrtable and the alchhol helped quite a bit too. i loved kissing him. i can't remember the last time i made out with somebody. it was hot and passionate and he kissed me on my collarbone wich is like my sex spot and he just had me floating. i havnt had a boy get under my skin like that since...... god who knows. now i really want to have sex with him but the question is should i wait? i really don't want to!!!!!!!!! tomorrow is sosa's bday so i plan on seeing whats going to go on with hinm. then sat i'll be out here all day but i plan on hanging out with carlos sat. evening. i got so stoned last nite its ridiculous. i was with my bro first and we smoked a blunt then me him and tadpole smoked a few bowls then i left bubba at tonya'sm (dammit todd!) smoked a j with danny and todd hit some dro at mikes and i was talk8ng to jesus! then i had to go home travis was pissed and i was fucked up. talked to carlos then fell asleep fully dressed and slept until 10 today. imissed a bunch of calls from mr. truesdale and he left demanding messages in myvoicemail but i was stoned and he's just going to have to get over it i'll see him tomorrow. i am bloated and my ovaries hurt. i need a nap