woo hoo

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what an awesome night. danielle ended up sleeping over and we brought ryan and sal home at like 12:45ish(they are really hot...btw).... ryan has all my roswell dvds cuz he is in love with roswell as well, not as much as me of course. anyways we were/are? supposed to hang out today, but i dunno cuz he was gonna go to great adventure today and now that it's nice he's probably there.no? who knows. anyways, so much fun. except for the fact that tom came... ummm he def. invited himself. frank apologized for bringing him haha too cute. and joe g came which umm makes my life.

i am so in love with my new cd! love it. i want neil to hear it though... but i don't want to talk to him yet. one... because if i were to talk to him again i want him to try to talk to me. and two... because i don't want to know how he has changed already. like if he's having sex with other girls randomly or like doing drugs... i hope he isn't doing drugs. and three... i am just not ready yet. but last night on the way home from dropping sal and ryan off ... i was thinking about how much i miss talking to him and i know that i will be able to talk to him soon. i just miss him too much ya know? but i am still so scared... like to know how he's moved on and changed. i just need to get more comfortable with me i guess. just a question though... why is it so much easier for him? i wonder if he misses me at all...hmm anyways

i miss sam!!! come back to jersey!!