well so much for that...

[spinmearounddd]

me and evan are done. maybe it's not for good, but who knows. he's with another girl already who's annoying as crap. i want to punch her in the face and break her nose more than it already is. idk people say i deserve better than evan and that when he comes running back to me, that i shouldn't take him back. and be miserable instead? i dont think so. idk. if he does anything sexual with her, i wont. but if he doesnt, then who knows? i see them fight all the time and she barely acts like he's alive when he's around. they'll be over soon. i just hope he doesnt tolerate as much crap from her as he did me. cuz then we're in for a looonnngggg ride. lol. haha. i doubt it though. i was different and i always will be different. God i just can't wait to leave and get out of all of this crap. i miss the days when everything made sense.

sorry for the rant. haha.