here's to the fixtures of our society, here's to the dream of you and me.

[spinedamage]

i'm back into writing poetry. i have finally figured out that is what i want to do with the rest of my life. i just wish i could get paid for it right now, so i don't have to get a job i will hate.

anyone want to spend the rest of their life poor with me?

i have developed an unhealthy crush on someone i know. it's unhealthy because i'm back on track with my life, a goal in sight, and the person is still out partying almost everyday. something i can not get back into. i need someone that can be there for me in a lot of ways that this person can not be right now. i want someone that will share a bed with me every night. but i was also never good at bringing up my feelings for people. and i am horrible at picking up feelings from other people. i wish we could all just be direct in our thoughts.

and if you want me, you better speak up. i won't wait. no no no, not any more. so you better move fast.

i can't wait for california. it's all i have been dreaming of, partially because i want to leave nh behind as soon as possible. this state is filled with too much heart break.

today is going to be poetry in concord. borders, hit the deck. all the places i know.