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[spimijanman]

i am only putting this here cus i need to get it out and i dont necessarily want her to read it.
i feel that i am fucking this up
i just called her and woke her up.
she said she would call
and i called her
i shouldnt of.
a moment ago i felt like i would cry.
i need sleep and a release, but i doubt i will get enough of either.

i really want to see her tomorrow.
but i am totally fucking shit up with her...
i will not call her tomorrow, or send an email, i must do neither...

FUCK
god save me...