i don't know when but a day's gunna come
I think this week had been a little too stressful. or maybe i just need this to occupy my mind? well i guess somethings are for the better. i dont know what else to say.
My head is starting to clear up, not in the good way, but i guess im kind of loosing things, they're falling out of my ears,my nose, my mouth, maybe i should just tape my face closed and see what happens.
But i don't know about school. school is just this place you go when you have nothing better to do and you think "maybe since im not doing aything with my time, i should at least do nothing and get something out of it?". well school isn't going to
Last forever, and im kind of liking where my whole relationships at school situation is going for some reason.
Everytime it rains i get scared, i hate having to be so damn paranoid all the time. i always have this little fear that i have cancer, or that something's going to kill me. how did
Everything get so fucked up? i wonder how long it will take to end and i wonder if i will be here when it ends. i
Don't think anyone can picture themselves in the future if they don't even have the slightest idea of who they are in the present. people are taking advantage of their own happiness. people don't know how good it feels to be happy until thay've been sad for as long as they can remember.
I think every single person should get at least a taste of something bad so that they wont be completely
Naive and know that it can be bad. i dont think most people know how they feel. maybe people think they're happy, but some people dont even know how it feels to be happy so they're deluting themselves into thinking they're actually at peace with themselves.i dont think they're thinking about what's really
Going
On. and i dont see how people can be so dumb, and just do something, even though they are aware that
Nothing good will come out of the situation, but for their own good and calmness, they still feel they should just come out with it. im not taking about a particular situation, im just being random so noone take offense to this. well i guess what i was just saying doesn't really matter, noone really
Cares what other people have to say. or maybe i think they do care, but for some reason, noone takes the time to let what is being said sink in and actually touch any part of you. the simplist things can mean so much. there were so many times when
Every day i'd just go lay down and watch tv.
And i'd think of something, and it would change how i look at everything. it's just like, let's say when you were 7 you saw the wizard of oz. but back then, you thought of it as this good movie you could sing along to. but now i
Guess after you watch it closely and when you're older, you realize things that you never would of caught while seeing it at the
Age of seven. well
I dont know what the hell im talking about so i'll leave myself alone and go do something that probably wont do anything for my future and it probably wont make me happy but it sure will make me feel good at the time. or maybe it wont. i can't really tell, but can anyone? good
Night
but i don't think i will have the power to try and stop this time
My head is starting to clear up, not in the good way, but i guess im kind of loosing things, they're falling out of my ears,my nose, my mouth, maybe i should just tape my face closed and see what happens.
But i don't know about school. school is just this place you go when you have nothing better to do and you think "maybe since im not doing aything with my time, i should at least do nothing and get something out of it?". well school isn't going to
Last forever, and im kind of liking where my whole relationships at school situation is going for some reason.
Everytime it rains i get scared, i hate having to be so damn paranoid all the time. i always have this little fear that i have cancer, or that something's going to kill me. how did
Everything get so fucked up? i wonder how long it will take to end and i wonder if i will be here when it ends. i
Don't think anyone can picture themselves in the future if they don't even have the slightest idea of who they are in the present. people are taking advantage of their own happiness. people don't know how good it feels to be happy until thay've been sad for as long as they can remember.
I think every single person should get at least a taste of something bad so that they wont be completely
Naive and know that it can be bad. i dont think most people know how they feel. maybe people think they're happy, but some people dont even know how it feels to be happy so they're deluting themselves into thinking they're actually at peace with themselves.i dont think they're thinking about what's really
Going
On. and i dont see how people can be so dumb, and just do something, even though they are aware that
Nothing good will come out of the situation, but for their own good and calmness, they still feel they should just come out with it. im not taking about a particular situation, im just being random so noone take offense to this. well i guess what i was just saying doesn't really matter, noone really
Cares what other people have to say. or maybe i think they do care, but for some reason, noone takes the time to let what is being said sink in and actually touch any part of you. the simplist things can mean so much. there were so many times when
Every day i'd just go lay down and watch tv.
And i'd think of something, and it would change how i look at everything. it's just like, let's say when you were 7 you saw the wizard of oz. but back then, you thought of it as this good movie you could sing along to. but now i
Guess after you watch it closely and when you're older, you realize things that you never would of caught while seeing it at the
Age of seven. well
I dont know what the hell im talking about so i'll leave myself alone and go do something that probably wont do anything for my future and it probably wont make me happy but it sure will make me feel good at the time. or maybe it wont. i can't really tell, but can anyone? good
Night
but i don't think i will have the power to try and stop this time