Feeling a little better
Hanging out in the hotel relaxing untill 4 before I have to go back to work. I was late this morning for work. I was suppose to be at the kitchen at 4, my alarm did not go off and Chausey (Jeffs Daughter) Called me at 4:03 I was like fuck. I was only a half hour late. So I was really down this morning thinking a lot about home and how much it sucks being away from it. Then I realized that doing that just makes things worse. If I just went to work everyday and fucking worked my ass off then I will be home in no time. Back in my non comfortable bed, in my beautiful g/f's arms, talking to john every day, seeing ryan a lot again. wow..lol. Life is great. I was almost in tears last night talking to Kate. I miss her a lot and I was just talking to her about how I did and I got all upset. No big deal. I'm better now. I like and don't like the fact that she doesnt act like she misses me lol. that sounds very selfish but shes acting really weird almost. I dunno I love her and she loves me and we will some day make a happy family. hmm Barney much? lol. So it's really helpful that I have music. That is always my escape. Alright well I will update maybe tomorrow. I'm gonna go chill watch some ER and Take a soak in the hot tub. Kate I love you baby. See all of you guys really soon!