Show me that you love me and that we belong together..
I don't know why i feel like this. I don't know if it's the rediculousness (sp) of Crystal and I's fight or what. But I just all of a sudden felt like comeplet shit. Seeing Kate have this awesome person in her life that I could never compare too, with his awesome band, his awesome house, how hes got so much in common with her, it makes me sick. I sometimes feel like im not good enough I don't do the things that some people do or someting. I know it's completly retarded and stupid but im sorry thats just how I feel. I really almost feel like Kate is not close to me as she used to. Shes so used to being without me she just forgot about what kind of feelings we share. I hate it. I hate everything about it. I miss the way things used to be. Lately So many things have changed for the worst, some of its almost too retarded to even fathom. I don't understand some people sometimes. I just hate myself sometimes. I feel like I could better myself sometimes and I don't know why or how.
Im such a fucking retard. Anyways. Sorry had a little moment
hmm so this weekend isnt going to go as planned. Kate is going down with her friends to watch Jermeys band play, in Union awesome! have fun with that. I have plans with the fellas anyways so. But Saturdays the night that Kate and I were suppose to hang out and go to the grand opening of the new club. The Underground. Fucking right. Bunch of good bands playing, Plus im on the list anyways, so it's all good. So because Kate is going to babysit her drunk friends im gonna go hang out with the fellas and Lauren Saturday night. Watch some live music, do a little dancing. Should be a good time. =) Sunday. well, it's up in the air. I'm hopefully gonna see my girlfriend. That would be nice.
My car is offically a piece of shit. It squeaks everytime I turn the heat on, the transmissons going, it needs a new altenator, its pissing me off. I need a vehicle that I don't put money into every 3 months. I'm going shopping with Rudder on Sat to see what my options are. It's really just pissing me off. I don't know what I want. Something sporty and standard. MAYBE I'LL GET A HONDA AND RICE THE SHIT OUT OF IT..YEAH!..fuckin losers. anyways. so that should be an adventure. anyone wanna buy a winter beater neon for 2 or 3 hundred bucks? lol. =) it still runs. Stickers still good.
hmm what else to talk about. I do not know. Have a good night everyone. Please comment. I like them a lot..I promise.
Im such a fucking retard. Anyways. Sorry had a little moment
hmm so this weekend isnt going to go as planned. Kate is going down with her friends to watch Jermeys band play, in Union awesome! have fun with that. I have plans with the fellas anyways so. But Saturdays the night that Kate and I were suppose to hang out and go to the grand opening of the new club. The Underground. Fucking right. Bunch of good bands playing, Plus im on the list anyways, so it's all good. So because Kate is going to babysit her drunk friends im gonna go hang out with the fellas and Lauren Saturday night. Watch some live music, do a little dancing. Should be a good time. =) Sunday. well, it's up in the air. I'm hopefully gonna see my girlfriend. That would be nice.
My car is offically a piece of shit. It squeaks everytime I turn the heat on, the transmissons going, it needs a new altenator, its pissing me off. I need a vehicle that I don't put money into every 3 months. I'm going shopping with Rudder on Sat to see what my options are. It's really just pissing me off. I don't know what I want. Something sporty and standard. MAYBE I'LL GET A HONDA AND RICE THE SHIT OUT OF IT..YEAH!..fuckin losers. anyways. so that should be an adventure. anyone wanna buy a winter beater neon for 2 or 3 hundred bucks? lol. =) it still runs. Stickers still good.
hmm what else to talk about. I do not know. Have a good night everyone. Please comment. I like them a lot..I promise.