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WHY DO I FUCK UP EVERYTHING GOOD IN MY LIFE. SERIOUSLY. WHAT THE FUCK.
I went to hang out to with Alex tonight, after a week. I was feeling a little bummed because I hadn't seen him all week but I was going to tonight. While just straight up chillin, I say the dumbest thing ever, that he just thinks I'm a piece of meat (not those words, I believe it was something along the lines of "you only like my ass.") because that's what I heard everyone say and I believed them.
UM AM I RETARDED? Now my rationalizing for believing people is because every other time I've dated a guy, everyone has pretty much hit the nail on the head- this message I tried to convey to him, but I just about chugged half a bottle of wine before hand, so it was a bit difficult.
I offended him so bad that for the first time ever he goes "I'm taking you home now." I feel terrible for saying that, but I just don't know what to believe anymore. I want to protect myself, but I like him so much that I just ended up hurting him.
THINGS WERE GOING SO WELL TOO. I WANT TO KICK MYSELF IN THE FACE A THOUSAND TIMES.
He was very sweet about everything. He simply replied that he isn't like everyone thinks he is and that people talk. He understood because I'm drunk and that alcohol does this to people and that he'd call me tomorrow. I just really hope he does. I'm begging to God that he does.
Will someone please help me in making this right?
I went to hang out to with Alex tonight, after a week. I was feeling a little bummed because I hadn't seen him all week but I was going to tonight. While just straight up chillin, I say the dumbest thing ever, that he just thinks I'm a piece of meat (not those words, I believe it was something along the lines of "you only like my ass.") because that's what I heard everyone say and I believed them.
UM AM I RETARDED? Now my rationalizing for believing people is because every other time I've dated a guy, everyone has pretty much hit the nail on the head- this message I tried to convey to him, but I just about chugged half a bottle of wine before hand, so it was a bit difficult.
I offended him so bad that for the first time ever he goes "I'm taking you home now." I feel terrible for saying that, but I just don't know what to believe anymore. I want to protect myself, but I like him so much that I just ended up hurting him.
THINGS WERE GOING SO WELL TOO. I WANT TO KICK MYSELF IN THE FACE A THOUSAND TIMES.
He was very sweet about everything. He simply replied that he isn't like everyone thinks he is and that people talk. He understood because I'm drunk and that alcohol does this to people and that he'd call me tomorrow. I just really hope he does. I'm begging to God that he does.
Will someone please help me in making this right?