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Yesterday I went to go visit my Binkey and Yammy. It was my first time seeing them in a few weeks. After a round of 100 questions from my Yammy, I was running home and I realized how much I love and adore them. Today I was kind of comparing them with my Nana and Papa and it occured to me how much I take my Binkey and Yammy for granted. They have always been there for me- every recital, competition, some feises, plays, concerts, and they're always there when there's a semi-formal, prom, sacrament- you name it and there carpooling with us, taking pictures like the paparazzi.
My Nana and Papa don't even want to come to my concert to see me play with the jazz band. They hate coming to my plays because they have to drive late at night. They fucking complain when my parents tell them about my confirmation. They've done everything for my two cousins, and even my sister, but heaven fucking forbid they do something for me. I can already hear them complaining at my sister's graduation because they have to sit in bleachers.
I get really scared everytime my Binkey or Yammy get sick. For awhile, it was really rough especially with recent stuff my Yammy was diagnosed with. I think it really affected my anxiety because I started to get really scared that I was going to die doing shit I've never done before. Like, that was the hard part about snowboarding. Petrified I was going to crack my head open. I would get nervous that other people were going to get in car accidents. It's stupid because I would randomly text people dumb shit to make sure they were responsive. I'm just crazyyyy.
I'm exhausted. Lacrosse has worn me outtt. I have to work tomorrow at eight too. AH! However, I'm getting mad chink food after. (: I can't believe joy asia is closing though. Arshg.
My Nana and Papa don't even want to come to my concert to see me play with the jazz band. They hate coming to my plays because they have to drive late at night. They fucking complain when my parents tell them about my confirmation. They've done everything for my two cousins, and even my sister, but heaven fucking forbid they do something for me. I can already hear them complaining at my sister's graduation because they have to sit in bleachers.
I get really scared everytime my Binkey or Yammy get sick. For awhile, it was really rough especially with recent stuff my Yammy was diagnosed with. I think it really affected my anxiety because I started to get really scared that I was going to die doing shit I've never done before. Like, that was the hard part about snowboarding. Petrified I was going to crack my head open. I would get nervous that other people were going to get in car accidents. It's stupid because I would randomly text people dumb shit to make sure they were responsive. I'm just crazyyyy.
I'm exhausted. Lacrosse has worn me outtt. I have to work tomorrow at eight too. AH! However, I'm getting mad chink food after. (: I can't believe joy asia is closing though. Arshg.