insomniac
insomnia kicks in again, usually my 3 to 5 rounds of sudoku puzzles will put me to sleep on my nintendo ds, but tonite it just is not working....maybe its the nap i took after work...the problem is i'm always so tired, its because i have sleep apnia from enlarged tonsils. my tonsils obstruct my breathing from being so enlarged that i choke and gasp while sleeping...spencer says it sounds like i'm trying to run a marathon while sleeping...i wish i didn't have to work tomorrow but tomorrow is my friday which is fantastic...cuz i have this friday and saturday off...i have to spend time at the DMV on friday to register my car...since i got a fix it ticket for the registration amongst other problems that i rather not go into right now since it will just amplify my anxiety and make me never sleep...i guess i feel really lonely right now, i always sleep really well next to spencer, i guess i feel secure and safe...there are very few people who i have felt safe next to, wayno is one of them too where i feel safe....i have a lot on my mind right now, this past week, it just seems like everything hit me at once, but thats how life is, full of change and impacts....i guess i got a little too comfortable and wasn't prepared, but are we ever really prepared?...i'll make it through, i always do....and i know that i'll make the right decisions in the future...for now i'm gonna go finish reading the sandman by neil gaiman...goodnite everyone....or should i say good morning...
-spilly™
-spilly™