power tripped...

[spill_the_dark]

another day another thing to tell you all. i'll admit i guess i on;y use this thing for mainly attention. and if that sounds pathetic think about how many people you look forward to reading responces from while you're posting

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[flamen_mind]

So here I am trying to come through to someone who broke through barriers sealed around me to protect myself and I'm not sure why...but I want you to know that you're not alone in this trap of authority. See, my father is practically never there for me and when my mother got ill, I had to reverse our roles and become a mother in some figure of speech. I had to take care of her and make sure she was provided with all these things so she could feel an ounch of some amount that would make her feel some what better. I plan to go away to school and am having the hardest time having to let go of taking care of her.

This may not sound alot like the situation you're going through but what I'm trying to say is that, your mother is having a hard time of letting go of you. You have these big dreams, a ever growing passion to pursue this amazing art and your mother knows you're going to make and is so happy for you, yet she wants to be apart of it as much as she can. She doesnt want to be forgotten or doesn't want to give up protection of you, because basically that's what a parent does to the best they know how, you know? And if she can't protect you she wants some sort of protectuion for when she can't be the one to provide it and usually that's a religious figure. God. I know because my mom is getting on me about it as well. Really sucks if you just want to live your life and branch out to new and better things.

The thing about the creative is that our grades never define our minds. What we are capable of and what we reach that others can't even grasp.

Our mom's don't want to take away our passions, but supply us what we need before they lose us to the world and our lives that we're already living. Hang in there, cause we see and know the passion surging throungh....I do.

Mali

P.s. Thanks for the hand.