(no subject)
I wish facebook wouldn't do taht "One year ago today" thing with statuses. I log in and it says "Going to see Despicable me with Shawn and Cabee. BBQ for supper om nom nom!" Thta makes me fucking sad. How much everything changes in a year.
I went out for the day with Laura yesterday. Went to supper and told her all about everything that happened. How I still don't understand it. That I still love you. That I'd take you back in a second if you came back. I almost cried, but I didn't. I don't want to cry about you any more. I cried more tears over you that I've cried in my life, and that's really saying somehting. Spent more time curled up in a ball sobbing than was ever needed because I hurt so much.
I'm so done with it.
So I'm out here, and I'm rockin' this town, and I'm living my life and it's pretty fucking awesome. So fuck you and your bullshit. I wonder if you think of me and Cabe and if you're any more damn happy than you were then, and somehow I really doubt that you are, because in 12 years of being your friend, I never seen you really happy about anything. Cause even though I get depressed and things are shitty for me, when things are good, fuck It, I enjoy them and I let myself be happy and I don't go looking for the bad in those moments, but you always did. You always were a downer.
This yea ris gonna be awesome. My best ever. I can feel it tingling in my bones. :)
I went out for the day with Laura yesterday. Went to supper and told her all about everything that happened. How I still don't understand it. That I still love you. That I'd take you back in a second if you came back. I almost cried, but I didn't. I don't want to cry about you any more. I cried more tears over you that I've cried in my life, and that's really saying somehting. Spent more time curled up in a ball sobbing than was ever needed because I hurt so much.
I'm so done with it.
So I'm out here, and I'm rockin' this town, and I'm living my life and it's pretty fucking awesome. So fuck you and your bullshit. I wonder if you think of me and Cabe and if you're any more damn happy than you were then, and somehow I really doubt that you are, because in 12 years of being your friend, I never seen you really happy about anything. Cause even though I get depressed and things are shitty for me, when things are good, fuck It, I enjoy them and I let myself be happy and I don't go looking for the bad in those moments, but you always did. You always were a downer.
This yea ris gonna be awesome. My best ever. I can feel it tingling in my bones. :)