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I'm fucking drunk as balls...
I had quit drinking. I drank once over Xmas and on New Years and got fucking sick both times.
I just ate 2 mini pizzas. Its the most i've eaten all week. I hope I don't get sick. All i can taste is mushrooms, but thats okay, I like mushrooms.
Cynthia and Kathleen came up this evening adn we hung out. THat was cool.. Its nice to hang out with people instead of being alone all the time. I haven\t really had anybody for a long time now. I guess maybe THats whay I wanted him to be here with me all the time. Because I was alone. Because I didn't have anyone except him. DIdn't have any friends here. It's lonely. Or maybe just because I loved him and wanted to be with him. I drank the wine Jenna gave me for Xmas. And drank a couple fo cans of beer. We talked about some crazy stuff. It was nice.
You weren't supposed to make me cry. You weren't supposed to make me hurt like this.