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Hmm Yea this was a loooong boring day so there is really nothing to say about it besides the fack that it was so fucking long and depressing... and long. I went out in public for the first time without makeup since about 7th grade maybe. I felt naked withoutit. My eyeliner is lik a security blanket for me and without it I felt so ugly and alone and lost. Everyone kept comming up to me and saying "aww what's wrong are you sick/depressed/tired/crying/upset/in a bad mood?" The excuses were varried. Meh.
Today at track we had a workout. It wasn't really too bad. We ran 2 800's, 3 500's and 3 250's.I shaved about 7 minutes off of my 800 which made me really happy and I finnally learned how to pull off a push correctly which was kinda cool. The only bad thing was that I felt so so dizzy after I ran every race. It's because of how unhealthy I eat. So yea I need to stop eating so much junk (again) and get on a healthy food kick (again). Since I did such a good job today and pushed myself really hard Phil let me have off tomorrow after about 5 minutes of grovling. Which makes me excited for tomorrow but wish it were today.
I just went tanning like an hour ago. It was a very weird experience. You stand in a booth with about a bajillion bright lights in it with really funny looking goggles so you dont kill your eyes and it's so hott and on top of that you're naked. Well you don't have to be but if there is anything I hate more is tanlines. They played really bad 80's music. Slightly upsetting but with the fans going I couldn't hear it. I'm all freckly now which makes me mad because I look like I'm 6 when I get my freckles. My mommy called me her little Irish girl which made me think oh God and my daddy said that I was burnt which is not cool. So yea tanning = not for the clostrophobic. I can't wait to see him tomorrow.
I miss him like whoa. If I could see him for only 5 minutes I would be happy. I honestly would. Tomorrow is going to be so long but tomorrow night is going to make it worth it. Le sigh.