so
so, what, its only been like 5 days or so since i posted.
had a good weekend.
spent it with youu<3
i'm sorry for being around a lot.
hm, i don't know what to write about this time. probably why i havent posted in a bit.
nothing to complain about, but nothing to be over-joyed about.
well, i'll say one thing.. i hate myself.. as always.
my mind needs to like, die, and stop thinking bad things, making it sad. that's what the problem is 99% of the time, guarunteed(sp?).
i'm going to try and not show emotion. i'll be a happy person from now on unless I have a REAL reason to be sad.
i should be excited, schools almost over. "schools out forever"
and i'm going to wake up in september, early, and stretch, and smirk, and go back to sleep. unless i have to go to work that morning, then i'll get up and go to work.
hey look, im writing about things.
the music i listen to doesnt help me..lol
i never thought that what i said, could have so many meanings.. i try to say i care, and i know it sounds like i dont mean it, she thinks im a parody.. i'm suppose to know what i'm doing wrong and make it right.. i think she's made of glass, she breaks with the lightest touch, and cuts me when i try to put her back together.. when she tells me to leave all she wants is for me to stay, when she wants me to stay it's dangerous for me to leave.. *im singing..shh*
ok, so i've completely lost my train of thought. i smell pizza though, and my dad just came home.
so my last call at work.. i definitly told the guy what i thought of him.. on mute, but still.. 'omg my internet doesnt work with this, blah blah, cancel it' *why dont you try shutting the f up, and letting me fix it for you before i subscribe you to every illegal porn site i can find asshole. i know all of your info* it's a good thing being in control like that, if people piss you off, they get mass junk mail, right after i turn off their junk filters. :)
ok, so ya.. wow.. im randomly thinking of things to say now.. maybe i should just stop this, and press on 'update journal' ... *thinks for a minute* *wakes up*
ok, the end.. time for food then bed.
'she's a killer for my pains..and though she wants me to hold her, shes a wild flower, wild flower, she grows wilder by the hour.. wild flower wild flower, i go wild while im around her..' singing again.
night all.. (i <3 you shandi)
had a good weekend.
spent it with youu<3
i'm sorry for being around a lot.
hm, i don't know what to write about this time. probably why i havent posted in a bit.
nothing to complain about, but nothing to be over-joyed about.
well, i'll say one thing.. i hate myself.. as always.
my mind needs to like, die, and stop thinking bad things, making it sad. that's what the problem is 99% of the time, guarunteed(sp?).
i'm going to try and not show emotion. i'll be a happy person from now on unless I have a REAL reason to be sad.
i should be excited, schools almost over. "schools out forever"
and i'm going to wake up in september, early, and stretch, and smirk, and go back to sleep. unless i have to go to work that morning, then i'll get up and go to work.
hey look, im writing about things.
the music i listen to doesnt help me..lol
i never thought that what i said, could have so many meanings.. i try to say i care, and i know it sounds like i dont mean it, she thinks im a parody.. i'm suppose to know what i'm doing wrong and make it right.. i think she's made of glass, she breaks with the lightest touch, and cuts me when i try to put her back together.. when she tells me to leave all she wants is for me to stay, when she wants me to stay it's dangerous for me to leave.. *im singing..shh*
ok, so i've completely lost my train of thought. i smell pizza though, and my dad just came home.
so my last call at work.. i definitly told the guy what i thought of him.. on mute, but still.. 'omg my internet doesnt work with this, blah blah, cancel it' *why dont you try shutting the f up, and letting me fix it for you before i subscribe you to every illegal porn site i can find asshole. i know all of your info* it's a good thing being in control like that, if people piss you off, they get mass junk mail, right after i turn off their junk filters. :)
ok, so ya.. wow.. im randomly thinking of things to say now.. maybe i should just stop this, and press on 'update journal' ... *thinks for a minute* *wakes up*
ok, the end.. time for food then bed.
'she's a killer for my pains..and though she wants me to hold her, shes a wild flower, wild flower, she grows wilder by the hour.. wild flower wild flower, i go wild while im around her..' singing again.
night all.. (i <3 you shandi)