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good fucking morning.
i normally don't update in the mornings b/c i'm too tired to get up and do it but i was awoken 30 minutes early so here i am.
today i need something to cheer me up...i went to bed in a really shitty mood and here i am waking up the same way. cryed myself to sleep for the first time in a while and today all i feel like doing is laying in bed all day. all i wanted last night was for someone to be next to me. i didn't really care who but i hate being alone. was that going to happen...well i'd hoped so but it didn't. my gorilla bobo is the only comfort i have. right now i feel like i'm doomed to a life of being single and lonely. i say this only b/c well i'm 20 i've never dated anybody since 7th grade and that's a middle school relationship so i don't count it. the only reason i hate this is b/c i feel like there aren't too many 20yr old college students who are single and have never dated anyone....whether it was a shitty relationship or not...they prolly still have dated someone. i'm confused about a lot of shit right now...and have been for a super long time. the only way i think this will go away is to actually date someone. i'm very frustrated lonely and bitter today. i want to punch something.
i hate religious studies b/c it's stupid and boring so i never pay attention. really whats the point of going except for attendance points.
i have to go shower now so i can go to that stupid class. i just needed to vent b/c i thought about it all night while falling asleep and didn't get up to do it then.
i normally don't update in the mornings b/c i'm too tired to get up and do it but i was awoken 30 minutes early so here i am.
today i need something to cheer me up...i went to bed in a really shitty mood and here i am waking up the same way. cryed myself to sleep for the first time in a while and today all i feel like doing is laying in bed all day. all i wanted last night was for someone to be next to me. i didn't really care who but i hate being alone. was that going to happen...well i'd hoped so but it didn't. my gorilla bobo is the only comfort i have. right now i feel like i'm doomed to a life of being single and lonely. i say this only b/c well i'm 20 i've never dated anybody since 7th grade and that's a middle school relationship so i don't count it. the only reason i hate this is b/c i feel like there aren't too many 20yr old college students who are single and have never dated anyone....whether it was a shitty relationship or not...they prolly still have dated someone. i'm confused about a lot of shit right now...and have been for a super long time. the only way i think this will go away is to actually date someone. i'm very frustrated lonely and bitter today. i want to punch something.
i hate religious studies b/c it's stupid and boring so i never pay attention. really whats the point of going except for attendance points.
i have to go shower now so i can go to that stupid class. i just needed to vent b/c i thought about it all night while falling asleep and didn't get up to do it then.